Souled Purpose

i am home!

2010-11-23T03:10:00.002+08:00

hi all~! back in KL now. i got a full force menu on my to-eat list. :P ready to get fat again so i can endure the hard and torrid conditions in uni. :s

anyways. this times gonna be a bit of a bore though. cousins and sis having STPM ( i wish them all the best as well as u guys sitting for both SPM/STPM, my prayers be with u all. ) and some of my frens are still in their respective campuses.. i am only back for 3 weeks this time though.. till december 10, then hafta head back to uni for end of the year concert preparation as usual..

first up on my to-do list is ta get a hair cut. i have been waiting tremendously long to come back to KL so i can get a proper cut. Penang ppl all dun know how to cut hair one. lol. one side long one side short lar. or mess the whole thing up. :s

This weekend imma gonna be on a getaway/retreat sort of thing to Frasiers Hill with Adrian.. where i will be meeting up Ps. Phil Stevenson, who was camp speaker 6 years back and was my "guardian angel"! haha. its been a tremendously quick 6 years.. still remember how he blessed us with his prophecy sessions in the same place Frasiers Hill! oh youth camp memories.. ;) wondering when youth camp will be held this year? i don't think i can make it again :( have ta head back to penang so early.. :S

Hopefully i can get a job when i head back this time to Penang after hols. I gotta sort of wishlist to fulfill
1. Get a bowling ball.
2. Change phone (iphone is my dreamphone but highly impossible :P) with a good cam/recorder to be able to produce better quality covers. ;S go to my youtube page @ http://www.youtube.com/user/musicizIife and u will understand what is bad quality. :(

of course i can only choose one and the top one is priority cause i got a few tournaments that i wanna join plus u can't really train with a house ball. u need a personal ball to accustom to, cos bowling really requires consistency.

ah.. being back and being able to sleep on my own bed, meet up some friends even though most are busy at this time is still fulfilling after a seriously stressed exam and a stressed semester. hoping the next one will be less busy and more fun and hopefully a job too..as they said enjoy uni life ma :)

Hopefully next semester i can too start serving in at my Penang church, EPCC :) Have been craving so long to serve the Lord. :)

ok then. thats bout it for the latest update!

agape..

long since...

2010-11-14T01:44:00.003+08:00

I updated! isn't it? almost half a year has past. and the last post was during my exams! lol. this time with no exception too. :X in the midst of it. at least during the 5 days of last week i had conquered 6 papers. with 2 remaining papers. :) seriously not in the mood now. but i have to force myself to study cos the next paper is on monday.. T_T

Well i just wanna share a testimony on God's grace for this exam..

As i said earlier on i had 6 papers in 5 days. all back to back. and for 3 days, meaning most of the things i had studied are usually gone cos i focused on the ones before. And i had no time for the papers approaching the weekend. So for some papers it was really really last minute.

I really prayed to God for this hoping that He would guide my paths to study and omit what was not important.

I was prompted over and over again to omit certain parts during my study and focus on some. Guess what? The ones i focused on came out and the ones i didn't were really gone from the exam! Call this luck but it happened for 3 papers so i believe its really the grace of God!!

I prayed for strength and i managed to survive this whole week by God's grace knowing that He has taken care of me and given me strength. This semester flew by really quick and the exams are coming to an end. Hopefully i can manage to focus and continue to finish off! :)

Of course, there are many lessons i learnt from this. That was not to gamble and test God. I coulda started earlier cos i didn't expect the subjects to be really that tough. But His grace was truly spared for me this time and i really thank Him :) He will nvr let u down and throw u aside. :)

Gotta get back to study now! :) Heading back to KL on 22nd november! Can't wait can't wait! :D

agape..

exams are over!~

2010-05-01T23:07:00.000+08:00

after a gruelling 8 papers in 11 days, i am free~! haha.. so many 4am-5am of many nights. after the sweat and energy, i hope i will be blessed =) will be back on 3rd may for 2 months! x) till then guys! =) just a side question. anyone going for church camp? :D

agape..

tight exam schedule..

2010-04-21T19:52:00.002+08:00

This semester i have a very tight exam schedule and i don't really know how i can study everything.. I will just have to bank it on the grace of God and also His strength and wisdom.. Do keep me in your prayers.. thanks..

19/4 - TITAS (Islamic and Asian Civilisations) - 2 units
21/4 - Dosage Form I (lab practical) - 4 units
23/4 - Peripheral Nervous System and Therapy - 4 units
24/4 - Organic Chemistry I - 3 units
26/4 - Communication In Pharmacy Practice - 2 units
28/4 - Ethnic Relations - 2 units
29/4 - Basic Pharmacology and Immunology - 2 units
30/4 - Dosage Form I (theory part ) - 4 units

Alas.. not really much time in the middle to study everything.. However, 2 down 6 to go, and so far it has been good. Praise God =)

Agape..

The longing..

2010-04-08T14:16:00.003+08:00

pushing towards the final run of the exams..however. the feeling seems void.. no motivation, no push.. i often find myself staring at my notes but nothing actually goes in.. baby had just left for home..and i am now sitting at the corridor where all the lecture halls are. its so empty.. and i am supposed to be studying.. i do really want to..

anyways.. tat was just a thought in my head tat i just wanted to spill out that is not really relevent..

Its been a while since i last played the piano.. and for the past few times i played it, it was massive involvement.. playing everywhere for gigs.. for most who i don't know, i am in the USM Jazz band.. so being the only pianist i have to practically back up for every song. and worst is i dont know how to sight read, and its been a tough ride, getting pressured and all. but i am getting better in terms of my sight reading. kinda getting a hang of it after not using it for like 6-7 years maybe? But my point is, i haven been really playing the stuff i used to like playing on the piano, the stuff that mingled my passion for music in the first place.

There is another concert coming up for small society tat encourages singer-songwriters, musicians to join.. its like a band but there are many people in it. Initially i wanted to join cause i tot it would be fun... but after the tedious experience i had to the point now i feel like playing music is no longer a passion but a burden, i decided to miss this concert, as it is optional and furthermore it takes up most of my holidays.

I find first and foremost that i really need a long break from playing music or being forced to play music. I truly long to play the things that i love to play on the piano. Guess i was born in nature to be a freestylist and playing last time with the youth back in church allowed me to be who i am. To be free to express the music i wanna express in my heart. But however, that feeling now feels void and i need to fill it back before i can again progress next sem to continue playing for the jazz band (its compulsory cause its a ko-kurikulum activity) again.

The true burden that i am facing now is that when i turned down the decision to join the concert this year for the optional band, they have tried numerous times to try to force me back in into the concert. I feel countless of times when i see them that my rejection to join the concert is like a betrayal to them. Come on lar, i have my choice to say no, since its optional. I really don wanna lose the friends i have by not joining this concert. But i just really need a long break during this holidays. And what meaning does it bring to me that i play music cause i am forced to and its burdening me, and when i do that, i cannot bring out the best in me. I really need the break to revive that passion and longing to play again. So please... release me..

I really long to play the music that can make me enjoy it as well as the people around me, that can best describe what i am feeling. And the most important, that my music reflects the love i have for my Maker, the one who embedded the passion in me and made me who i am today. Oh the longing..

Agape..

The biggest angpow ever. ;)

2010-02-24T12:36:00.003+08:00

hey peeps.. its been so long since i updated this blog. First post somemore in 2010... haha.. probably due to 3 factors..
1. no mood to blog
2. no time to blog
3. nothing to blog :P

time to scrape of the rust a bit here.. i do visit this page sometimes. but somehow each lasts for not more than 30 secs. my own blog somemore.. lol.

Just finished my hols.. and its been an awesome time of a lot of relaxation and a refreshing time where sleep is never insufficient back home :) agreed? A major thing did happen this time around i got home... tat is... *drums* i got a car to drive around in campus now! =D I consider this the biggest angpow tat my Heavenly Father and my parents blessed me with =D

Seriously needed the car cause i will be involved in church.. in addition to that i am in jazz band.. and this time around my classes are pretty packed and there are quite a number of university courses that require me to travel far from my faculty at 8am in the morning =.=" so yea.. this car came in timely after prayers and talks with my parents.. =)

Perhaps u readers are thinking that i got a new car. But i didn't. haha. Its one of the cars i used to drive back in KL.. hehe. my church frens in KL should know it too.. its the old Proton Saga that i drove around during my "P license" days.. (glad its over :P) But knowing that the car is old, my father went and did a major makeover on the car.. cost quite a lot.. cause the battery was changed, some tweaks to the air con, radiator.. etc etc... but now the car is as good as new.. i can feel the power when driving it and its very smooth (the engine is a very good one, the very same engine since the production of the car and was never changed).. the only prob now may be the suspension cause the car is already old and the suspension is hard. but other than that its perfect! =D thanks dad. =) and this car made it all the way from KL to Penang at 100-110km/h :O great speed for a car tats 21 years old.. ;)

Now with the car i can loosen up my schedule a bit.. because back then, even with a 2 hour gap, there is no room for me to rest because by the time i get back and then bathe i will need to come out again, have my meals straightaway and then rush for the next activity.. for instance jazz band.. still haven taken the time i needed to wait for the bus.. so all in all its just ngam ngam without getting any rest.. =( so yeah. now i feel so much better and i can actually have some time to sit down and take a breather b4 going out again =D

Anyways.. i got a couple of quizzes coming up.. so please do keep me in prayer and I really hope i can cope.. :) got lots of assignments to finish and some gigs to do in the band in march. so its gonna be pretty hectic.. thus i would say i mayyyyy update sometime soon, or maybe i will have to leave it to rust again for a bit.. *apply antirust*

This post is actually more to tell u guys tat i am still alive and kicking! haha.. especially for those who haven heard from me for a long time. i have not changed a single bit. :P maybe slimmer lar. :p

God bless ya all and take care and to my family and friends, u are always in my prayers, especially those far away back home or overseas or outstation..hope u guys are overflowing with blessings from God in your lives too =)

Thats all from me for now, got a lab coming up later.. gotta go prepare. sort of like cooking lab. :P or rather dosage form lab where we actually get a hands on session in making drugs manually. interesting eh? heh.

agape..

busy busy

2009-12-19T14:43:00.003+08:00

have been back in Penang for some time already.. going back for Christmas though =)

practically have been super busy cause of the music camp preparation for the jazz concert we gonna have on the 30th of December 2009 =)

our schedule is practically like this every single day

10am -1pm = solo/individual prac
2pm - 5pm = group/sectional prac
8pm - 12am = whole band prac together guided by the conductor

the gaps in between are supposed to be breaks but ended up preparing the door gifts (we have to prepare 630) so yeah. Its typically a full day.

had to handle so much nagging and scolding from the professor just because of minor mistakes made like on the first day we tried the song. Its like he expects us to know every single song in 2 mins by jus reading the scores given to us. well some can do it but i am definitely not a reader. i spent like 15 mins listening to the song via mp3 and acclimatizing to it and i got flamed for not coordinating with the practice group who sat there patiently waiting for me to start with the song. In the first place i cannot read score like a genius, secondly i can play a song after only listening to it and it will take less then 20 mins for sure. totally so wrongly blamed. it was not like i din care bout the prac group, but in order to have a smooth practice i have to know how to play the song first right.? of course i jus shut up and din say anything at all.

anyways. will be back on the 24th of dec on the 1030 am bus. =) so looking forward to tat. hehe =)

agape..

a dramatic end

2009-11-17T18:11:00.001+08:00

finally its all over.. i survived a gruesome 3 weeks of grilling papers.. i would say the first 4 papers were awesome... but todays paper was just.. argh.. statistics it is.. and crazy it was.. =( spoiled my mood adi larr.. no happy ending =( But anyways praise God for all the wonderful works He has performed throughout this final exam =)

anyways.. on a brighter side.. =) i am going to pack up adi.. hehe.. going back to KL tomo evening.. and my sis is coming to pick up my stuffs tonite.. so i need to do speed packing.. =x never liked packing.. =(

anyways.. a whole month of hols is in front of me now.. and another sem will begin after that.. i have a music camp during mid december.. so i will be missing youth camp again.. =( sadddd..

gotta go pack! =D *holiday mood*

agape..

2/11/2009

2009-11-03T19:14:00.002+08:00

tat was the day of my first exam. Microbiology for Pharmacy.. alas.. the toughest subject amongst all 5 i would say.. but thank God it went well at least i could answer all the questions.. =)

over the past week i had a very tough time sleeping..its like i have this pain at the back of my head that prevented me from sleeping.. everytime i told my brain to rest rest rest, sooner or later, a relapse of all the stuff i have studied would roll in my brains.. =.= the night before my exams, i lay down at 12 and could only sleep at 5am. that was even after i took a flu medicine (i din have flu) jus to make me sleep. which is seriously a bad action. it was my first time needing to drug myself to bed.

so yesterday evening i talked to my mum about it and she said i was going into overdrive. my brain was active but my body was super exhausted. she asked me to go see the doctor and get mild sleeping pill just for one night. cos my body needed the rest and everytime i tried to put in new stuff into my head my brain would hurt terribly. so that evening itself i went to see the doctor and yea. He told me that i was too stressed up and overdrive by stuffing a lot of stuffs into my brain at one go. He told me something tat i believe its applicable for all students in uni level larr. =)

quoted by Dr akbar
"As a uni student, it is different from pre u or SPM. It is totally impossible to memorize all the material that u have. So jus cover the necessary stuffs and leave the rest."

well. i am and have always been a student who is only satisfied when i can cover everything. my definition of do my best means i have covered every single detail before i go into the exam hall.
But yea.. ultimately i think as long as u have reached your limit jus leave the rest to God =)

p.s i hate the fact that i have to be on pills to sleep at this young age ==" but it won't be an addiction definitely =)

on a side note,
a testimony i have to share though. For my microbiology test, jus 2 nites before the exam and the nite before the exam, i was prompted to study certain parts again to refresh my memory. and guess wat, on the exam day itself, wat i was prompted to study mostly came out! =) must be the work of God.

2 days time its physiology. i have only covered 25% of it.. as i spent the whole of last week covering microbiology.. i hope i won't stress up myself. really=.= i pray that God will help me cover the necessary.. really need His help right now. i cannot afford to stress up again.. i really can't. i am already tired.

1 down, 4 to go
agape..

reopening of my blog after my exams

2009-10-30T22:28:00.003+08:00

hey people! long since u guys heard from me right? like i disappeared off the surface of the blogging world. But hey, i will be back after my final exams from the 2/11 - 17/11!

i need your prayers for my finals desperately because i am super stressed and a lot of material to cover.. but here are the dates and times for my exam..

2/11 - microbiology for pharmacy (4) 2.15 pm
5/11 - physiology (3) 9.00 am
10/11 - basic chemistry (4) 9.00 am
11/11 - public health pharmacy (2) 9.00am
17/11 - statistics for pharmacy (4) 2.15 pm

the numbers in the brackets is the units for each subject, or rather denotes the weightage of the subjects towards my final cgpa. The higher the number, the greater it will affect my cgpa. as u can see total up the number of units i will have 17 units already for my core subjects alone. hectic eh. (max units allowed per sem is 20 units).

the first 2 days are my most hated subjects =.= biology. i am so not a bio person and microbiology is so so so detailed! argh physio is too descriptive for me as well! =( nevermind. after the first 2 days i feel more at ease. but the last day, statistics is another subject where we don't understand a single thing. cos its all bout research and biostatistics. case by case study, research methodologies. crazy la. its like dumping us first year students in the deep end. =(

but i thank God that our research projects for the Public health and statistics (yes 2 researches to be done. ) went well. after analysing a total of 1500 odd self-designed questionaires distributed to students and the public and running the analysis through computer software (SPSS) and finally the poster presentations to the lecturers about our research findings (over a process of 3 months) we finally overcome the 2 projects -phew-

i have to end here then. My baby went back to Ipoh already for the weekend. Makes me remember home.. kinda miss it too.. its the longest period i ever been away so far.. and yea.. hopefully i pull through the final 2 weeks of exams... =) please remember to keep me in your prayers.. i really need it.. tats all for now i guess.

agape..

a break

2009-09-04T22:35:00.001+08:00

i need one from the blogging world. so i guess i won't be updating that often.. got lots of other stuffs to do =( so for the time being take care guys.. =)

agape..

a breather

2009-08-18T18:06:00.002+08:00

yes.. finally a one week break from all the hassle..

finally convo is over.. it was realllyyy tiring playing for 9 sidang.. but it was on the whole a really fun process larh.. =) thank God for the strength tat He gave me to play for all 9 sessions cos "being the pianist is like being the backbone for the orchestra" - Prof Razif (our conductor + lecturer for the band/orchestra) it was a tough job and there were hiccups but yea.. He helped me pull through.. =) gotta learn up sight reading again though after all these..

now i am back home and relaxing for a while before i go back to hit my books at the end of this week =).. i will put up the photos i took for convo soon.. but don expect them to be clear pics as my phone is not a good cam phone.. btw i will be getting a new phone this week cos the LCD of the old one is spoiled.. and i cant read messages with it.. not worth repairing la cos its the hardest part to repair and the most costly.. =(

my older sis came back home with the baby =) and she is growing well haha.. =)

Praying that God will give me the wisdom and the strength to go through my course material and get my degree in the end.. pharmacy really is a tough course. but i know tat He opened the door for me to be able to study it for a reason.. and tat is the purpose why i am still driving myself to do my best for Him =)

till the next time..

agape..

going home =)

2009-08-13T22:11:00.002+08:00

hey all~! i will be going home on Sunday afternoon! =) back for a week.. so i hope to catch up on some of u all when i get back kays?

agape..

40th convocation

2009-08-10T08:02:00.000+08:00

yep.. this week will be the 40th convo that USM is gonna organize.. and i am gonna be playing for convo.. -tension- cos its a very major ceremony, very formal and very prestigous.. A lot of VVIPs will be there.. praying hard that this week will just fly pass and it will soon be Sunday and i will be going back to KL then... =)

EPCC (my current church) also celebrated her 12th anniversary yesterday =)

agape..

happy 1st anniversary

2009-08-03T11:43:00.002+08:00

to my dropping counter.. happy 1st anniversary =P

nothing to post for now.. been a pretty much busy weekend and i got class later so byes =)

agape..

of camps and orientations

2009-07-27T01:21:00.006+08:00

finally man.. all the camps and orientations are done.. and yes. well into the 3rd week =(.. tired man..

first bout the camp i said i would talk bout in the previous post..

held at Kem D'Puncak Bris, Sik, Kedah, on the 17th to 19th of july..

on the first day, reached bout 12 noon, briefing started at 230pm.. and cont till 530pm.. man.. under the hot sun for 3 hrs.. torture.. =( then we started to set up our tents and were divided into groups..

p.s they took away our phones and expensive stuff (watches etc. only the leaders were allowed to keep watches) nyways.. there was no line haha..

at night, we had ice breaking session.. which consisted of quite a lot of games and dancing.. haha.. yea.. after tat around 10pm, we were entrusted with a group flag,an individual flag, a plate and cup each of which we had the responsibility of "taking care" of the 3 items entrusted to us.. mafan la. have to drag here and there during activities.. in fact, our group flag got "stolen" by the facilitator before and we got punished for it.. lol.. after the entrustment session, we were asked to go to sleep at 12am..

(super kind of them.. as the schedule only said that we were allowed to sleep at 2. started to get suspicious...)

true enough.. at 1am, the hailer went off.. we had to drag ourselves to the meeting area.. and were told that we had to jungle trek in the middle of the night.. all of us had to take a boat over to an isolated island in the middle of the lake and start the trek without a torchlight.. kind of a new experience for some of them.. and a new adventure for me.. cos i had never sat on a boat in the middle of the night.. =O

we had to line up and cling on to each other so that no one falls behind and loses their way.. the gurl who held my hand held on so tight tat my entire palm went numb LOL.. super scared la.. some of them.. even though it was actually really safe.. but as understood, some of us really fear the dark.. it was kinda beautiful trekking at 2am.. cos we could observe a lot of colourful glow in the dark plants.. =) and sense the cool night air + peaceful sound of the crickets.. =)

by the time we went back it was already 430am.. slept for 1 hr before waking up at 6am..

for the 2nd day, was pretty much games bla bla. the highlight of the day was something tat i had done before..

SURVIVAL!

pretty much a cooking session over a fire.. and other than the vegetables, salt and some seasoning powder + 3 matches.. there was the highlight dish..
FRESH CHICKEN.. DEJA VU

had to catch one of the live chickens around the camp area (purposely released by the facilitators).. slaughter it (this had to be done by a muslim to make it halal), clean it then finally cook it..

during the slaughter process i had to hold the chicken as no one dared to do it in my team. =( while a muslim faci helped us slit the throat.. (our team had only 2 muslim gurls who din know the proper technique).. shall not go into details.. but we produced nice dishes though =) curry powder chicken deep fried =)

night time we had performances etc.. entertaining and all.. and luckily they let us sleep for 4 hrs that night.. and finally the last day was pretty much bout breaking camp, prize giving and debriefing.. left camp bout 3pm and reached bout 430pm in uni...

p.s 1. they din let us have cold water throughout the camp. hot orange juice, hot tea, hot everything.. teruk la.. especially after hot days and strenous activities..

p.s 2. shower area was a common area.. and the water was green.. =(.. rather take fresh from the pipe..

p.s 3 after they gave us back our phones.. managed to take a few pics of the campsite b4 leaving =)

as u can see. really a nice place by the lake =)

*its cooling at night..

some other random pics =) during jazz band orientation.. its a game actually..
1. get a partner. advisable same sex
2. form 2 circles one outside and one inside
3. outside spin anticlockwise, inside spin clockwise
4. when gm says hand to hand! find your partner and touch each other hand to hand.
5. as game goes further the contact parts get gross.. as u can see..

nose to mouth =O

tats bout it for orientation though.. =).. next i found this burger at a mamak shop nearby. i won't reveal the price.. i want u visitors to guess the price of this burger and chips.. and its seriously nice.. the burger is the size of my hand.. =o

leave your answers in my cbox =)

tats all for now..

agape..

drowning

2009-07-21T21:23:00.002+08:00

hi all.. its long since i've updated.. i just can't find the time to do so..

oh my goodness.. nvr been so stressed out over assignments and involvement in my life before man.. =(.. since this is the only place where i can rant and let it all out, i am seriously not gonna care if u can't bear with it.. no offense.

jus came back from a training camp. compulsory for all first year students..first time it was compulsory... from 17th to 19th july.. super tired man.. after coming back. it was all activities and we slept only 6 hrs in 48 hrs.. =( enuff bout the camp for now.. i will post bout it later.. its a super nice place.. apparently we had the best campsite amongst the 5..

next.. i joined jazz band.. we play jazz duh.. and yea.. got all the sax, trumpet, etc etc la.. and now i found out that as a pianist they required me to read notes.. OHOH.. =(. not my thing.. but thank God that there was another pianist that knew how to read.. but also not so efficient cause she quit for 3 years.. but still better than my 7 years of no trainin lol.. and yea.. we are gonna play for convocation in august... so for my situation the professor who is our conductor + trainer purposely put in a song.. yes.. "my heart will go on" from titanic.. cause it suits my style more.. now i feel double the pressure. cos i will be soloing a lot of parts.. and we finished practice yesterday at midnite.. from 8pm.. grilling man.. cos convocation is mid august and we don have much time.

p.s practices are on monday and thursday..8-11 and 5-7 plus respectively.. but for the love of music and the will to wanna relearn my theory i found this quite enjoyable. though really tiring..

then comes my course's assignments..

so far we have been bombarded with 3 assignments.. 1 due this friday and the prof gave it last wednesday! the assignment was to evaluate a whole journal on the given topic.. and we must "critically appraise" the literature. are u as confused? without a actual guideline we must complete it. and according to the schedule, we are supposed to be given this assignment beginning of this month and we have 1 month to complete it. but now it seems not. and i am the leader for this project for my group and we haven't even started! i am in a bizarre mood right now..

then comes the stupid research project..must really search journals, evaluate literature again.. must come out with questionaire.. zzz.. must go update the prof in charge every wednesday till we finish our research at the end of the 14th week.. that is around october time la..crazy la..=.=

then we have our nursing home project to do every weekend for 4 weeks.. tat luckily i am not the leader for my group la.. so i don have much of a role there..

orientation week for our respective faculties pulak.. i am also my group's leader.. meeting tomo night for a one time practice for a cheer, a sketch from a given topic.. in 2 hrs must complete leh =.=.. cos we can't actually fork out the time for these side stuffs.. closing ceremony this sat.. along with a race.. haih. don know whether i will even survive the week

then also comes the lab reports.. sian.. 2 reports.. submission this friday.. yikes! and these are not like the reports we do in school leh.. its quite complex and we must detail every single result..

there are a lot more things i wish i could put into words. but seems like i don have the time.. i will end my post here. hope i will come back soon to my blogging word.. till then..

agape..

meeting up with some old buddies

2009-07-12T20:50:00.005+08:00

heh. first week of lecture and we already feel sleepy.. =P

this will be a picture post of an interesting restaurant the whole bunch of us were at in queensbay mall.. the whole bunch referring to KMPh buddies from the main campus (all of us were there.. like only 5 =.=) AND some "delegates" ( 2 only D: sob sob) from the engineering campus across the bridge =)

this is a chair =O

me modelling the chair =P

i don't understand wats this for.. =(

lol... the menu

and finally the food.. it tastes good.. thank goodness.. haha =)

the food bowl.. haha.. your mind must be strong while eating.. =P.. my other frens who ordered
normal plates (in fact they were toilet covers haha) were trying to get my imagination running =(

nyways.. thats the restaurant we found.. its called "T-bowl". go figure why. LOL.

then yesterday night.. i walked to youth in EPCC and it was POURING.. oh my goodness.. it takes 15-20 mins to walk, and i was wet from waistdown by the time i got there.. and my shoes were totally "banjir"ted.. even with an umbrella.. cos the winds were crazy strong man.. it was my 4th time getting caught in the rain here adi.. really wish at these moments tat i had a car =(

some of the pics of EPCC..

Pastor Sam, senior pastor of EPCC

the youth

the stage, with all the music equipment. -drool-

hehe.. had an awesome time in both services, yesterday night and today's service.. =)

the adults in the morning service even jumped along to songs like evermore, so in love with u, king of majesty.. (yes they do those songs in the Sunday worship)... even my friends whom i brought today said they never experienced such a vibrant church so far.. and the good news is... they are planning to come back!! =D

tats bout all now. class tomo in the afternoon. hehe. more sleep time =D

agape..

The best uni ever..an awesome weekend

2009-07-06T01:03:00.004+08:00

The title says it all.. i am super proud to be a student of USM! its really a privilege to be able to come here and enjoy life as a uni student here.. apparently this uni is the most open uni in the whole of Malaysia.. haha.. i shall brag bout the uni in this post. so bear with me all those who have been through a horrid orientation week in other universities around Malaysia =P

lets get on with point no 1~!

ok.. first and foremost i would like to express my utmost gratitude to the Chinese seniors during the orientation week and as well as after who helped me settle down in this place.. u guys were the most friendliest ppl and u've made me feel at home hehe =)..

p.s these seniors were not the facilitators or PPSL as we would call them.. they were just random ppl willing to give us advice and help us settle. =)

point no. 2

this place hor. theres food everywhere man.. outside my desasiswa (hostel).. they have 2 24 hr mamak stalls complete with wifi. as well as a kopitiam with wifi too.. and the wifi is not streamyx. (apparently streamyx not popular here.. lol). its penangfon again.. and its crazy fast.. xD..

p.s.. just a side note, my hostel is outside the main campus. its like opposite the road.. where they have 6 blocks and 3 desasiswa. if u get my point, 1 desasiswa has 2 blocks each for both male and female, and we are on the top of a hill, overlooking the main campus.. nice view eh x)

so imagine this, in our hostel area, u can walk out at any hour (yes including the wee hours of the night) if u are hungry and go grab a bite at one of the mamaks as well as get really decent internet access.. hehe =)

point no 3. this is related to the awesome weekend i had.. hehe

on saturday night, we had a bunch of seniors from a church nearby (century church or stg. my fren introed them to me..) who volunteered to bring students out to makan and tour around the area outside the campus a bit..

so we were a bunch of 30 something excited freshman heading towards Sg Dua.. (one of the gates of the main campus is situated there.. so we can pretty much walk there ourselves in the future..) but this time we went by van.. used a few rounds to get us all there.. haha

and guess wat.. there were like 2 gigantic hawker food courts there.. with all kinds of food.. char koey teow la, asam laksa la.. western la. name it u got it man.. =) this will take sometime to sample all the stuff they have there.. =P

after the dinner, we went to the pasar malam (open every sat nite) that was situated jus across the street in the same place.. so we took a walk there. when we started walking through the pasar malam, we tot that it was jus one stretch of the road and that was it.. then when we reached the end we were like OH MY GOODNESS!~ turn left there were more stalls, then finish tat stretch another right and more stalls! LOL. it was the biggest pasar malam i've ever seen in my whole life. in fact bigger than the ones in KL.. woot!~

p.s there was a Chinese stall section and Malay and Indian stall section.. tats why it was so big.. not being racist but they have halal issues to abide to so we do understand.. =)

after the long walk in the pasar malam, we walked across the street to Tesco. yes there was a tesco and quite a big one too.. bought all our supplies and stuff and finally headed back to the hostel.. man, a super enjoyable nite.. =)

Its an awesome uni life here really. with such an incredible environment to live in, wat is there to complain about? hehe..

point no. 4

ok this was about sunday.. =).

went to EPCC (excel point community church) for service this morning.. and man, it was a wonderful service! i enjoyed every part of it, and i am looking forward to serve in the music ministry there soon.. =) they have such a vibrant congregation, a passionate pastor (pastor sam) who preached today.. there was no problem in being attentive.. he was so filled with energy ready to channel God's word and the message was enthralling and captivating.. i found myself nodding and saying "amens" to the points he presented. truly he is a talented and anointed speaker of The Word.. =) i am not going to have a prob making this my regular church here as it has surpassed my expectation.. awesome. =D

after the church service, my bro in law and sister took as to queensbay mall and dropped us there.. man the mall was as big as midvalley.. maybe not as big but something identical. we walked around, watched a movie (ice age 3) which was totally hilarious and fun to watch.. its a must watch..

rating 8/10

p.s i don wanna spoil anything. so no reviews =D

after the movie we went back to the hostel and that ended my Sunday.. =)

as a concluding point, words cannot describe how great life here is, and how i really look forward to my years here.. its really a blessing to be here.. amongst friendly ppl.. amongst a familiar culture (in USM, there are more Chinese students than Malay surprisingly =O ).. during my last orientation in matriculation, i so wanted to go home after orientation. but this time, i don have tat feeling anymore.. i had the feeling of adventure, to explore and to appreciate every moment tat i am going to have here.. have positive vibes. and this is where i am now, living life here to the fullest and having tons of fun! =)

i will halt for now.. if i cont i will be long winded haha.. =).. to all my frens in other unis like UPM, UKM, UM.. u guys enjoy the privilege of going home every weekend k.. (most of u guys). and its in KL, and u all gonna have a uber fun time too..hehe. so i wish u guys all the best and take care.. =)

agape..

a great week and a great start

2009-07-02T18:47:00.002+08:00

hey all! its been quite some time since i last updated this blog.. cause i could not get any internet access..

p.s the wireless internet here is security enabled.. so i have to register in order to get access to it.. Had to walk all the way to the pusat komputer.. so far..=(.. no bus service yet till friday!

Hola! i bring greetings from USM, Penang.. =D

Orientation week was not as hectic as matriculation la.. in fact its very relaxed.. =P.. pity to all my frens who are in UKM and UPM.. all the best and i hope u guys survive =P..

Quite like it here.. hehe.. =).. its a nice place.. aside from the walking from the hostel to the dewan for major activities and also for your information, my hostel is across the road outside the campus.. so its a pretty long walk to the faculties inside the campus..

next week when the seniors come back, its gonna be a rush for the bus service.. everyone will have ta squeeze and squash.. but since i'm from KL, there shud be no prob.. kinda used to rush hour madness.. x)

looking really forward to going to EPCC this weekend.. hehe.. =) wondering how the new church will be like and the environment of the church.. looking forward to start serving again and be an encouragement to the young people in USM and around in Penang.. but the Penang one will have to wait till i am used to this place of course..

the system in the university is a whole lot diff from wat i used to experience.. in the beginning its really kinda hard to grasp the minimum requirement of the units needed to graduate.. the pharmacy course alone is already super busy.. but we still have to take stuff like BM, english, islam and asian civilisations, keusahawanan, koko, skill courses and other stuffs to fulfill the units.. it was kinda hard to understand.. but now i kinda get it.. all the same.. its gonna be super busy but fun.. hehe

looking forward to blogging more in this place.. since i really cannot do much here..haha..
p.s the isp provider in USM is "penangfon" which uses fibre optics for their cables.. not like the copper wires "erhem" used by "erhem" company.. so it can actually house a massive amount of data transfer.. i checked the download speed and it is 4.69mbps o.o..

oh before i end.. i have a few testimonies to share

1. the day i registered, i got a chinese/kadazan roommate who speaks mandarin (it was arranged beforehand by the uni)

2. he is a Christian and so is my neighbour who is also Chinese and both are my coursemates..

3. managed to know another friend from Sarawak who is also a Christian.. haha.. and also not forgetting the friend i mentioned about in the earlier post..

Overall i thank God for granting me awesome friends whom share the same faith as mine.. we can openly talk bout our faith with each other.. hehe. which is kinda cool =D

thats all for now la..

agape..

last few moments

2009-06-24T22:31:00.004+08:00

i updated!!! lol

went for bowling today with david... my last game in KL and for sometime too.. and guess wat... i broke my own personal record.. =D

A 178!! =D

my previous best was a 171.. this was memorable cos at the last frame i had a bad split...and i tot gone la my chance to set a new record.. but somehow managed to spare it.. and create a 17x score.. heeeee

yala.. think this probably was my last time out enjoying life too.. =(

oh before i end..

Yesterday something happened and i would deem tat as nothing short of a miracle...

I was at the mamak with David and somehow i came across Melissa.. (yep from youth).. she stays closeby... she was with a bunch of her cousins la.. and one of her cousins was going to USM too to study architecture.. this is the part where i prayed for.. That God would grant me a good roommate.. and guess wat, he is in the same hostel with me! and on top of that he is a Christian and we plan to go to the same church in Penang! =D.. its not confirmed tat we are roommates yet, but we plan to register together and request for it la.. at least now i have someone that i know and can room with.. thank You Lord! =D

i will leave it for now.. =).nites!

agape..

rusty blog

2009-06-23T17:26:00.002+08:00

hey.. its been long..lazy to update since its holidays and not much to do.. =(

ytd went out with Hansel, Kah Yun, Lydia and Rosanne.. which was kinda cool since we caught up at camporama and then not long after tat we got ta meet again :).. watched "Fighting".. which has kinda a plain storyline.. everything was kinda expected haha and i don understand why the movie was rated 18 SG. there was minimal blood aside the whacking and violence which was quite minimal compared to other "U" rated movies.. but it was an ok movie..

rating : 6/10

perhaps i would update my blog more often later on. because i will be off to Penang on a new adventure and i hope things will really happen there =)

agape..

i am off...

2009-05-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

going off to penang.. 26th june..4 years.. got an offer to do pharmacy there in USM (universiti sains malaysia).. i can't express how blessed i am..its a miracle..cause i did physics in matriculation..(for your info..for pharmacy courses they favour bio students) and yet i was selected as part of the 117 students from all over malaysia to do pharmacy in the uni that is supposedly the best in Malaysia for pharmacy..well.. i will talk more bout it later in the next post.. this is just a brief notice..

p.s1 USM is the only uni which allows physics students to have a chance to do life sciences

its really really God's hand.. i and thank Him for that

sad part is i am leaving again.. *sigh*

agape..

whole update =D

2009-05-21T00:27:00.007+08:00

alrite alrite i will update =P

hey all.. i am back after my 2 week stint travelling all over malaysia. =)

first i went to pahang on tuesday (5th may) to start my training as a facilitator for orientation week in my ex matriculation college.. (yes i am an alumni now.. =P).. hehe..

then on tat thursday recieved an sms tat was totally potong steam.. *sigh* i had to go to Penang for an interview with the faculty of pharmacy in USM on Monday (11th may).. so. yea.. friday itself i rushed back to KL.. then Sunday i packed my stuff then went to Penang..

the interview itself i would say was a bit tough..

first we lost our way in USM. no laughs. =P. the uni IS big. and finding one faculty was like a needle in a haystack. took half an hr then gave up and asked the guard. (something we shud have done from the start =_=)

second. the questions they asked during the interview was all bout pharmacy. like.. what is pharmacy? which sector of pharmacy do u wanna do after your degree? do u know this and that bereau or sector in pharmacy? LOL. i was expecting questions bout me. my achievements, of course a bit of pharmacy but to that extent i was a bit taken aback. on the spot they asked me to list 3 strong points and 2 weaknesses tat i have. stunted. i mind went blank. but still managed to answer them la phew.

so overall i think it was a pretty good interview.. hehe. i hope i get the course. cause i kinda <3 penang. =).. its not a bad place to be at haha.. ok..

after my interview on monday, took a evening bus. back to KL. next afternoon went back to Pahang via bus again.. i think i have buslag. i was immensely tired when i reached the coll on tuesday evening. but nevertheless i was excited to meet the bunch of Chinese juniors for their moral class 5 mins after my arrival. Without bathing, rushed down after putting down all my stuff and bam. 190 ppl in the lecture hall sitting waiting for the lecturer to come in.. it was moral class time =) and we as facilitators get the advantage of the first 20 mins as the lecturers are usually late haha =)..

So yea.. introduced myself.. and we begin the usual briefing of all the stuff tat we were briefed on in my year.. like reference books, bus tickets, organisations to join, etc etc..

next morning (wed morning), they had to wake up at 430am, and so did all the facilitators. it lasted till the end of the week.. =( so imagine all the faces during moral class at 530am on friday morning haha =(.. it was like zombie gathering x)

this bunch of juniors left an impact on me nevertheless.. though our ultimate goal as facilitators was to instill discipline and knowledge of this coll to our juniors so tat they can survive the 10 months.. haha =).. we also tried to ensure no one quitted coll because of the environment, because of the life.. unless they got better offers.. but quit just to do form 6 is utter nonsense. really.. because

1. this is a shorter course and guarantees u a place in local Uni (a good one too) if u obtain awesome results which is actually not hard to get honestly.. even if u get not so good results, chances are u still get choice number 7 or 8 in your list. =)

2. form 6 hor, how many ppl can get 4.0. its like so crazy impossible to get.. and if u don't get that, they might just send u to some uni in Sabah or Sarawak.. dangerously risky..and even if u wanna go Singapore or overseas to study. if your STPM results are no good. you can't go either.. unless u have real $ so conclusion. if u have a safe base. why not go for it.. the environment of independance is just a matter of time. when all of us go uni, it will be the same.. but i still don't understand why some ppl quit. =(

but i would say. for our pahang matriculation, no chinese quit for Form 6 muahaha.. only for JPA and better offers.. but i am disappointed at my own school juniors. nearly all of them came back for form 6. i can't help feeling frustrated at that..

On Friday, which was the end of all the orientation week and stuff, i came back to KL, relieved and not regretting that i had the chance to give back what this college has given me.. hehe.. if i have a chance i will try to become facilitator again next year. =).. its quite fun really haha x)

p.s1* i had to do a class act on thursday morning just to change their attitude cos this year we used a softer approach and they were getting out of hand. so no one wanted to be the bad guy. i had to be. i din scold them, but i sorta "poured out" my "frustration" on them =P. which actually worked. why?

p.s2* cos on Friday morning. they surprised us with a Manila card 2 tables long (school table).. with all the words of appreciation and promises to change and put in their effort for this year from all the juniors (each one wrote one small card and stuck it on the big card).. =) and also a song.. =D i was seriously touched and to date, the card is with one of our lecturers in the office x).. its the first time facilitators ever recieved such a gift. thats y i said this bunch of juniors was special..to complete such a card in the span of one night shows your sincerity to change for the better.. u guys rocked! ok.. tat was about my 2 weeks away from home.. ok next..

YESTERDAY night.. was the most frightening experience in my life LOL.. i was playing some games on my lappy then i went to my desktop and saw a msn message

"you can now check your matriculation results for sem 2 finals at this website"

i was like " EH? wasn't it released only on 20th may,10am?"

my hands went cold and my heart started to beat. i wasn't ready for this.. not now. =( i was expecting a sleepless night. cos i knew i did not do really well for my physics.. i went and typed my matric number plus IC.. and..

OH MY GOODNESS.. PRAISE GOD! =D

God's mercy is really evident here.. and i wanna give all credit to Him.. cos i am doing this for His glory alone.. =).. all those prayers are answered now.. i can finally breathe. hahaha

this really means a lot to me.. considering my effort tat i put in was much more than in Sem 1.. and also God's grace.. cos i really really really did a bad paper for physics.. so i din know how i managed to get this.. but yea.. HE gave it to me..

so now i can breathe easier. cause i was already considering with my family... backup plans if i did not get a 4.0 CGPA... due to my physics. =x

but now all the worries are over.. now its up to God again to work wonders and give me the course of my choice.. heehee.. =D

God You are good and Your mercy endureth forever. =)

ehe.. this is a random shot.. 2 kitties playing around in the hostel block i was staying in during my stint as a facilitator in college..

ehe.. as promised some of the pics i took during the trip to teluk chempedak.. this is just the sunrise =)

and this last pic was taken when we were walking along the beach at 4am plus plus x)

ehe.. oh those days. =(. missing it..

agape..

better feed my blog a bit

2009-05-04T00:00:00.003+08:00

yep.. tot it will be time.. haha..

well.. ok.. how shall i start.. for starters.. i am back from Penang.. visitin my sis, bro in law and the baby Shanna.. thank God they are all fine. hehe.. baby is healthy and cute.. x)..

going off to pahang again on tuesday to facilitate orientation week for the juniors, next batch of matriculation students.. hehe. Gonna be MIA from may 5th to may 16th.. but in the middle i will have an interview.. (details not cfmed).. so i will have to travel up and down from Pahang.. hopefully the interview will be in the location where i wanted it to be, which is in KL (Shah Alam).. i just hope it will not be in Penang. if not it will be terrible.. going from here to there.. and apparently being a facilitator is gonna be a very tiring responsibility.. so see how i am gonna balance up my time.. haha.

bout the teluk chempedak (TC) trip i had.. just before i left Kuantan the last time.

it was sort of a mixture of unforgettable events..

first for dinner we had the famous chicken chop and a drink.. which in mandarin is called xi mi lao.. honeydew flavour. haha.. i don really know how to describe it.. but its a sweet drink with honeydew fruit and milk and sago bits..and some agar agar.. which was delicious.. haha.. u can even find this drink in KL.. but yea apparently it was famous in TC. and yes.. its those hawker store by the beach.. so yea. sea breeze and all.. make an awesome meal together with frens.. haha

then after the meal, took a walk.. then went back to the chalet.. all of us decided to sleep and wake up at 4am.. go to the beach and wait for the sunrise..

at 4am. alarms sounded all over the room, followed by groans, then silence. LOL

finally 430am, we managed to kick ourselves out of bed.. one had to be literally dragged. =.=

went to McD. x). (its 24hrs).. grabbed a meal. all of us were starving.. and since we were all gonna sleep through breakfast later mite as well grab a bite... haha.

went down to the beach.. chit chatted and ate.. and after tat.. went down to the sea, took of our slippers and walked one whole stretch of the beach.. it was a cool feeling, the late nite sea breeze, warm sea water (ehe. science. nite water is warm). and the waves lapping at your feet. first time i ever walked at the beach at 5am.. awesome experience

after 2 rounds, we sat back on the beach, waiting for the sun to rise.. it was already 6am, but due to the slight drizzle and cloudy skies, we din expect much..

630am, we could see a bit of the sky breaking apart.. light shining through the very seams of the clouds.. a crowd had started to gather around the beach awaiting for the sun to rise as well.. apparently there were a bunch of strange ppl who went swimming =/

in fact. i captured every moment of the sunrise from then.. which i will post in the next post becoz i am downloading something via bit torrent and the upload will be ultra slow.

p.s1. my phone doesn't have nite mode.. which wasn't much of a help.. =(.. the phones with nite mode captured better pics.

7am. sun rose fully.. as expected, we didn't get a chance to see the yoke. cos the sky was cloudy and misty.. but the colours were apparent and clear.. satisfying.. =)..

went back to the chalet after tat.. all dropped dead.. woke up at 1130 am checked out and went to the bus station, boarded the bus and headed home.. hehe =)

tat was pretty much of wat happened.. a very summarized account..

p.s 2 my phone did not manage to get a lot of pics becos all the events took place at nite.. which as i said my phone has no nite mode. so can't take any clear pics. =(

p.s 3 i think i need to feed my blog with more pics rather than words. but where to find pics?????? ish..

tats bout all for now.. ehe..

agape..

malas

2009-04-28T22:22:00.000+08:00

don feel the urge to update x)

agape..

hommmeeeee

2009-04-19T18:22:00.000+08:00

yep.. i am home! at last.. got some pics of the sunrise we took at teluk chempedak later.. and also the posting bout our last night in Kuantan of which i spent with my best friends in matriculation..=)

p/s need ta go for dinner.. =X

apape..

Its over

2009-04-17T16:13:00.002+08:00

finally i've finished my final paper.. looking forward to home now.. be back for good on Sunday..

can finally heave a sigh of relief.. sleep without having to worry bout facts.. worry bout whether i have worked hard enuff.. even today itself i was having bad flu last nite.. took a pill and slept early.. then woke up 4am in the morning to complete my studies.. and thank God i did.. coz i managed to cover everything.. =)..

really looking forward to KL and the things i am gonna do back there.. =D

agape..

Crazynesssssssss

2009-04-15T21:34:00.003+08:00

past 2 days were really crazy.. a roller coaster ride with ups and downs..

slept for 2 hrs out of 48.. for the last 2 days... when i wanted to just sleep, i would roll around.. my head would be heavy.. symptoms of tension i believe.. because of that, after yesterday which in my last post, i stated would be my worst exam day, i slept for 10 hrs that night.. really nice sleep haha.. =) really tiring though.. to go into the exam hall tired and wish i could get more sleep.. nearly fell asleep during my maths paper 2 =P.. had to go wash my face..

for the last 2 days, i personally think that i made it through maths... as in i think it was sufficient to earn me what i wanted.. but for physics. oh my goodness.. it was terrible.. part of my insomnia was due to my physics paper which kinda traumatised me.. looking back at the paper i wish there were things i could have changed.. perhaps question choice and answers.. even though i cannot make anymore changes but sometimes these things tend to haunt u.. and its doing so to me right now.. its one of those cases where u slap ureself on the head after u knew u had made a mistake instantly after u handed ure paper.. and in my case.. it was not a mistake.. it was quite a lot of mistakes.. =(...but undeniably the paper was tough.. according to everybody in the physics stream.. the students in bio got a freakishly easy paper though.. it ain't fair.. =(

looking back at the effort i put in for this exams.. i kinda put in more than what i did in sem 1.. especially for the physics paper.. i ran through the whole thing twice. and spent a lot of time on doing the exercises etc etc.. but somehow i seemed to do much worse compared to my previous sem.. i don't know.. really.. i have prayed before i did the paper.. 5 mins before i started i laid my hands on the paper, putting it in God's hands and well.. i gave my all during the paper and i personally hope that God will miraculously give me wat i deserve now.. =).. though the aftermath its really kinda frustrating and i get fidgety when i think bout it now.. i pray that God will give me peace.. and strength to finish of the 2 days i have left..

part of these feelings come from the pressure of not gettin the course of my choice if i don get that perfect cgpa of 4.0.. which requires an A for all 3 core subjects.. i applied for pharmacy in USM in Penang..and that definitely requires a 4.0 cgpa.. i got that 4.0 for sem 1.. and now i have to get it again.. arrrghhh.. and looking at that situation and experience i had yesterday.. i don't know whether that is possible now.. but when i was messaging David yesterday.. he said something that actually summarized the whole thing up.. bout how i should feel bout this whole thing... He said :

" God has willed for all of these to happen.. its included in His plan.. so whether u get that 4.0 or not, He will still ensure that u get the course that He wants u to do.. according to His plan.. if by not getting the perfect score ensures that u walk in His plan, then so be it.. "

Kinda true isn't it.. i don't need to really care bout what happens after this.. watever i have done is done and now is in God's hands.. He will point my direction for me.. and if it means failing me to get my attention then so be it. =)

p.s my definition of fail means not getting an A.. (LOL)..because i have no other option.. hehe.

through this all i prayed and still is praying that watever i get brings glory to God.. because all this is for Him..

countdown : 4 days to home
2 days till exam ends

agape..

opening ceremony

2009-04-13T11:18:00.003+08:00

yeps.. i've just started my finals for 2nd sem.. jus finished english paper which i don really care about.. cause it doesn't affect my CGPA.. (cummulative grade point average)

i don know what to say.. i've studied my utmost best and i fear that the questions may be like super tough.. cos to be honest, i havent really covered everything in the syllabus.. tomo is gonna be the worst exam day because of physics 2 and maths 2 on the same day.. which is very taxing.. coz.. both require a lot of study.. thank God i nearly finished my physics already but for maths.. oh my goodness.. paper 2 content, i have like 2 more chapters to cover and also lots of practice to do.. so i don't know how i am gonna manage my time tonight.. =(.. a bit worried on which subject i am gonna focus on..

wednesday is a holiday.. not really a holiday though..its just that Melaka has a public hol on that day so practically we have to take a break too. coz this exam is standardized around the matriculation colleges in the whole of Malaysia.. =)

But seriously after tomo i will be more relaxed.. coz the final day(friday) is gona be chem.. and for that suject i have adi revised most of it.. what is left is just the front part.. =)

After friday i am gonna stay over for one more night becoz i have a uni entry test i have to.. sort of a personality test to see whether i am suited for the course of my choice.. that will be on Saturday.. after the test during noon, i will be going to Kuantan for the night with my gang of frens here.. we are going to the beach for one final gathering.. then on Sunday i will take a bus back to KL.. and thats when i will be back for good. =).. really really looking forward to that.. i can't really remember when was the last time i could just sit back and relax and don need to think about my studies.. lol..

On the other hand, i got the offer to become a facilitator for the orientation week for the new students of 2009/2010.. pretty cool considering the fact that i still remember my orientation week.. really fresh too in my memory.. only 5 chinese got chosen out of 15+ applications and 3 were from the student council.. so that must be God wanting me to leave something in my chinese juniors..
p.s not being racist here.. its just that the chinese facis will be the one taking after the Chinese students most of the time.. so yea.. =)

and on the bright side i will get a chance to come back to this coll for a while to see the next batch of youngsters who are gonna experience what i went through last year.. homesickness la.. tiredness la.. etc etc.. but that will be from 6th may till 16th may..

and YAY i will be going to Pulau Redang in at the end of June with some of my friends.. 20 -30 of them.. june 23-25.. it will be my first time to Redang and i hope it will be a blast.. =D

thats all for now.. wish me all the best..it will be super pressurizing these few days.. but i believe that God will give me strength and wisdom to persevere the remaining 4 days.. =)

Oh.. before i forget.. i heard that the production for Easter back in KL was awesome.. if any of u guys have the CD.. i wan pinjam k? =)

and also just wanna take this opportunity to wish u guys a belated blessed easter..

Thank U Lord for the change U brought to this earth 2000+yrs ago.. when u gave the only son that U had.. for us..that we will have a hope.. and a second chance..

agape..

post # 100

2009-04-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

a bit of blog history

i started this blog not long after i first stepped here in Pahang.. now i am two weeks from leaving this place and at post no.100.. meaningful huh.. at least to me.. since i have actually posted 100 posts here.. =)

when i was writing this post, memories flashed back on how it all started, orientation week, the barbeque at the beachside.. moments with my beloved Daddy in heaven, all those posts that made my blog what is it today...

no i don't have a thank u list.. haha.. cause i only have one person in mind to thank, and in fact, He is not even a person, He is God... everything that i have been through, He planned it for me, everything that i am going to achieve, He will lay out one by one... my future, my plans, all in His hands.. =).. i am who i am because of His perfect plan..

heard a lot about my friends back in KL.. =P.. seems like i missed a lot of things happening, for example, Michael, my buddy in church, black.. =P.. got into a band with my other friends in KL, all from the same church, they are called A Mile Away, and trust me this bunch of people are good.. I've seen them grow in the music ministry and their talent is amazing.. advertising for them pulak.. =S.. but yeah.. they are one good bunch =D.. hope u guys have a blast together making music and also learn something through this process.. =).. when u get famous don't forget me.. =P

p.s1 i heard bout the band thing from IR night which i also accidently stepped across through someone's blog..

kinda not been to classes this week coz its the last week of class and the lecturers are just plainly doing revision which i rather do myself in the room.. =).. my routine is kinda messed up nowadays, sleeping at 4-5am getting up at noon.. haha.. but yeah.. it seems to do me better, so i will still continue it.. hope i have time to complete studying everything.. so much memory work this time compared to sem 1 where it was all bout calculation and less theory..

p.s 2 memory power is my weakness, sometimes i forget things that i have done 10 mins ago.. =0

people ask me how do i cope with this life that is so stressful and there is even hardly time to breathe especially during the exam period, coz its a lot to learn and study given such a short period of time.. but what keeps me really going is that :

I AM DOING THIS FOR GOD!!

Thats what matters, for His glory and His alone..

agape..

Happy April Fool!

2009-04-01T16:59:00.002+08:00

lol... hope u guys don't get fooled =P

agape..

23,18,7... the countdown

2009-03-25T10:33:00.004+08:00

hey all =)

long since i've posted huh..have been quite busy going by the same routine of class - eat - study - sleep.. to the point where i din even touch my laptop (at least not until i studied enuff)... even at this point i am blogging at the library.. coz now i can't study another word.. too sickening..

23,18,7 -- a set of numbers which i somehow find quite significant for now and gives me mixed feelings thinking bout it haha.. =O

7 - 7 days of classes to go and i am done with classes in this matriculation college.. no more lectures, tutorials, lab sessions. don know whether to be happy or sad.. happy coz i already had enuff of classes.. i don feel the oomph to go for classes anymore nowadays in this coll.. sad because its next week is gonna be the last week with my classmates and lecturers as a class though i would say time flies till the extent i din really have time to bond strongly with them, nevertheless, there were still moments.. i can still remember the first day of class last year in May and now i hope that i remember the last day of class next week..

18 - 18 days till finals.. exams coming up soon.. its gonna be a tough one this second sem.. i have already started studying and i still feel that time is insufficient.. for those that know me well, i don start studying this early.. i usually start like 2 weeks before the exam coz i am one of those ppl that can remember a lot of things in a short period of time but also forget it very fast... i really thank God that He gave me the will to start early.. if not i will be even more jittery than i am now.. after getting a 4.0 for sem 1, sem 2 is indeed a lot of pressure.. coz i will be aiming for the same score and for me to get the course that i wanna do in my uni, that score is not an option liao.. =(.. its a must.. too much competition..

23- 23 days till i permanently come back to KL. thats wat i am looking forward to la.. though i will miss some of the really good friends that i have made here.. its been a life journey, learning and living with u guys.. appreciate every moment we've all had together.. definitely will not forget each and everyone of u, jus remember to stay in touch.. =D.. Its gonna be a minimum of 3 months that i will be spending in KL, then i will see where God leads me for uni.. if He leads me to Penang, then i will have to go.. if He wills me to stay back in KL, awesome.. i will be close to home.. =)..

agape..

taking time out

2009-03-10T13:15:00.002+08:00

as the title says.. i won't be frequently updating any more.. with the first reason being exams coming up in a months time and i need ta work hard for the final stretch

i may post once in a while but it will not be often..

2nd reason being i nowadays quite malas to sign in and post new things about my life here.. its kinda gonna be the same routine for the next month.. eat sleep study etc etc.. boringness but owh well. 1 month.

joy is the next time i will be seeing u guys in KL will be the time when i am permanently back to serve.. no more Pahang boy la.. =).. it will be a whole 3 months of KL KL and KL.. then i will see where God leads me to for my uni life.. it will either be in Penang or in KL.. both also close to home.. =)..

i can't wait for the next month when everything finishes.. till then! =D

agape..

post CNY thoughts and lessons

2009-03-02T14:13:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging much recently.. so many things have happened but i have so little time to blog them out.. i wish i could write and write and write and write.. but anyways.. i can only provide u guys with a short update..

last monday.. dinner night. It was indeed a night of sharing and remembering those experiences that we went through.. a night of gratefulness.. This dinner was held to celebrate the success we all tasted through the CNY night.. and also the pesta tanglung which was like so long ago.. but true enough.. we enjoyed ourselves thoroughly.. pics will be in the "picture post" i have been talking about.. promise it will be around after this week.. but i didn't take many photos. =(..

Through this event.. the Chinese in this college has proved that though we are small in number, great achievements are not rendered impossible.. through this event, we are united in our hearts as a community that can stand up to bring a difference. Bonds have been formed that will never be broken.. A long journey till this day that was filled with countless moments.. i was very touched at the video that summed up our preparations for the whole event.. mixed emotions ran through the hall as all of us watched that 20 min long video..

ok.. enough bout all that blabbing.. as a conclusion to sum up the whole thing, this event has brought us together, and though we are leaving in a months time for good and won't be seeing each other again, i just hope that these memories will remain and brought out of the college.. its way too much of a waste to leave it behind... =)

the rest of the week just went by like normal.. i remember how last time during my sec school days, 12am will be considered as super super late already.. nowadys.. its like " wah, 12am only a.. still early nia.. " LOL. lets put it this way.. with my group of friends, i am sleeping at 2am daily and waking up at 7am.. i can't attempt wat i tried to do in Semester 1.. which was sleeping 2-3 hrs a day.. i jus can't anymore.. its wayyy too tiring..

during the weekend, me and my gang of friends went out to Kuantan, had an awesome bowling session.. 12 people bowling together.. many interesting styles were observed =D.. i didn't videotape it as they wanted it to be private.. hehe.. x)

ok.. i think i will leave it for now.. need to start lab class already.. byes! =D

agape..

the end.. relieved

2009-02-23T15:08:00.003+08:00

awesome night yesterday..thank God..=D the only error that occurred was an occasional delay in the playing of the songs but overall it was a blast.. super tiring but all worth it..

i didn't take many photos... but i will be going around blogs, friendsters and facebooks looking for pics to compile..

looking forward to tonight's dinner.. a celebration.. of all the hard work that we have put in.. hopefully it will be a rewarding night =)

agape..

quick update

2009-02-19T21:32:00.004+08:00

just a small update larh.. =)

yesterday night was the full-dress rehearsal for the CNY celebration night thats gonna be held this Sunday... i don know larh.. but yesterday nite was strewn with technical errors. and since i was on the technical team and also the only guy who spent the most time in the control room upstairs.. guess who got flamed? (no prizes =D)..

not gonna justify myself.. but 50% of the errors weren't caused by "human error" rather the computers chose to misbehave by for example randomly jumping to another song in the middle of one (right in the middle of the dance too!! =( .. )

i wish i could scream and shout out loud that regardless of what happens.. performers.. retain your composure on stage.. chill out and know that we are trying our best and sweating it out trying to make things work out for u. and we won't give up without a fight! k? and thats a promise. This is not the time to push responsibilities towards each other or to find fault with each other.. come on larh. we are one big team.. =) lovey-dovey (eww.. =P)

but thank God for friends who stood by me.. understanding everything that was going on.. i will not choose to name.. (i fear tat if i miss out some people they may be unhappy.. )u know who u all are and i deeply appreciate it.. thanks.. =D

agape..

thankful

2009-02-16T14:14:00.003+08:00

Happy belated valentines day!

p.s 19th valentines day single and proud of it. =D

Results for mid sem test came out today.. it wasn't awesome.. but it was not too bad either.. Thank God for that.. =).. i expected a lot worse.. i din get straight A's.. but i din get a B either. it was around A- B+ so-so kind of results.. even though somehow deep inside i felt that i should not have made so many careless mistakes.. cos the papers were relatively very easy.. in fact the hardest paper which was maths earned me an A.. LOL.. but nevertheless i now choose to be content and just look forward.. this makes up 10% of my finals but with my results, it earned me a minimum of 7 out of 10.. so not too bad hehe..

Saturday night was a blast. Wah Loong (Jack)..my best pal at matriculation won the KMPh idol singing competition.. woots! ~ the support he got from both the songs he sung, which were "when u say nothing at all" and "Kau Ilhamku".. man.. i also got to know a couple of new friends that night.. =).. but to have a friend actually win a singing competition which he was put against not only the students but also the staff of the college.. i am really beyond words..

p.s. i am gonna be singing with him on CNY reunion dinner night (next monday).. b4 the singing competition, i felt no pressure.. now.. its like..(i am gonna be singing beside a competiton winner..o_O)..

no time to go down to the room to plug into the cable which can enable me to upload pics fast.. but when i do it will be a mega upload.. =)

Whisper of my heart
"I could have chosen to mourn or linger in sorrow but i have chosen to bask in Your joy, for what i have today is Yours and for Your glory alone.. "

agape..

our time is running out~

2009-02-11T11:28:00.003+08:00

no time to post!!!!!!!!!!!! =(.. i reeeeaaalllly wanna update those pics.. T__T.. nvm.. it will have to wait.. =)

p.s Kerlee.. take care yea.. don keep on falling sick.. =(... love ya lots too.. =D

agape..

of birthdays and celebrations

2009-02-09T14:25:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Kerlee! =)

thanks for being an awesome friend that always never failed to make me smile and never failed to brighten my day.. i thank God for bringing u into my life.. =D continue to live life strong and well as u celebrate ure 19th year.. (old =P)

sry i am one day late.. no time to do a post yesterday.. =(

In comp lab now.. having class.. lecturer is blabbing on and on bout photoshop.. something so commonly used to edit and touch up photos (at least for me la).. jus came from Kerlee's birthday celebration at the cafeteria.. best thing is, some of my high school friends and her boyfriend (my ex primary and high school mate) + her best friends came to our college from KL just to visit her.. that was great effort.. driving all the way..

yesterday night was a blast..and a tiring one.. Ponggal night.. upload photos later on. =) cos i am in the lab now and can't do it. will do it tonight though...

was again put in the technical team.. lots of running up and down.. shouting into the walkie talkie. my friend, also my co-partner leading the team was literally barking orders.. haha.. but owh well.. job pressure lasted for the moment only.. after the whole thing was over, everything was forgotten, was an awesome event in whole.. we took this as a prelude to improve on our upcoming Chinese New Year.. learn from our mistakes eh? =)

i have great respect for the Indians of our college.. a very talented bunch.. with less than 20 ppl, they could handle a big event such as this and managed to collect funds worth RM1000 in total for an orphanage.. i salute them.. their performances were powerpacked, the backdrops and decor of the hall was detail and pretty, the order of the event very well planned and the pre-competitions were handled very well.. =D U guys made history by organising the first Indian festival celebration in the college...

Last friday, went back to my high school's, CF (Christian fellowship)..both David and myself handled the whole session.. David shared about the importance of bringing God glory in everything that we do, and shared also bout the change God brought into His life.. and in the end i shared too bout the importance of standing up to God's call regardless of age and closed them by asking them to offer their lives to be used for God's glory.. it was an awesome session... and especially it was those young people from Form 1- Form 3 that turned out.. the feeling of seeing the effects of our prayers and our efforts back when we were in Form 5 can't be described by words.. pure joy and hope.. All glory to God.. =)

shucks..only 1 hr of class has passed by updating this and surfing the net.. got another hour to endure..T_T.. till tonight.. =)

agape..

my 2 weeks of hols

2009-02-01T22:00:00.002+08:00

warning: long post ahead..(not really).. rather

------> warning: post is full of words..din take any pics. sorry =X

what did i do with my 2 weeks of hols..

practically i din have much online access because my old house is under renovation and the phone line is stuck there.. i had better online access second week cause most of the renovation work done already.. =)

went to sam's place for fellowship =P.. 3 nights.. haha.. well not consecutively la.. haha.. but yeah.. had a great time there.. =).. as always.. there was those usual debates..=O.. pointless ones that lead to nowhere. lol..

watched criminal minds like crazy.. from 12am i would watch to 3am or 4am.. =P.. its full of suspense la.. its keeps one craving.. =P

went out to celebrate Julia's b'day.. at Nandos.. Bangsar Village.. Her boyfriend made the cake.. nice one too.. =D.. p.s He is a culinary student.. but that was like WOW.. haha.. delicious.. a LOT of icing.. =O

failed mw20..only certain ppl understand this.. but its not relevant to most here.. so i won't explain it.. let those who know it laugh at me.. =(.. 160m nia.. T__T

had reunion dinner.. the mums all cooked.. haha.. long since we last ate home-cooked food.. x). personally.. i would rather stick to eating out next time lorh.. its not that their food sucks.. its really nice.. =).. but the process or preparing it and cleaning up.. we ended up playing card games to clear the food.. like who loses gets the penalty of eating such an amount etc etc..

went bowling with Wah Loong.. nothing significant here.. but it was something i craved for and i love.. so had to do it la.. no matter wat =D

bonded well with a lot of ppl this hols.. =).. a memorable two weeks..

i know this will sound scary..

but i came back today.. craving to go to class.. O_O

and also started to do my assignments.. O_O.

and also did them wayyyy before the dateline.. O____O.. (btw.. if u all know me.. i am a professional procrastinator. i make a living out of it.. =P)

next post will be soon. i promise.. =)

agape..

2009-01-31T16:13:00.001+08:00

update all bout my hols when i get back to college. x)

P.s coll too boring.. too much time.. can blog there.. =D

Happy Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

malas nak update.. but when i do i promise long long one k.. =P

happy chinese new year and happy holidays to all! Back to watching Criminal Minds.

p.s that show rocks.. got twists and all.. awesome crime solving show. =D

agape.

back for hols!

2009-01-18T22:16:00.002+08:00

yes.. 2 weeks straight.. awesome no? but the downside to it is that i have no internet access at home due to my old house being renovated and due completion only after CNY.. so.. yeah.. have to blog under wifi or at friends house.. thats y i won't be posting so often.. =x

tomo going bowling with a friend.. syok.. =P.. seriously don't have anything really planned for this holidays.. so i am free.. anyone wanna meet up? =D

will be coming back with an urgent post that God has placed in my mind to talk about.. i don't have the sources now to think and write.. so i have to go back and draft it out first..

till then..

agape.

halfway through

2009-01-14T16:49:00.002+08:00

exams are over!!! though i won't say i have done super well..the paper was relatively easy but careless mistakes piled up. =( but i have put in my best.. and let God do the rest.. =)

the exams mark the middle mark of sem 2.. LOL.. halfway done..

couldn't access the cbox on the wireless coz they blocked it.. =_=.. thanks for all the wishes there too.. =D..

back this weekend for 2 weeks.. hope to have a blast again.. =D

p.s hope i can come to sg to meet u guys.. =)

agape..

MIA

2009-01-12T00:38:00.002+08:00

sorry for the absence.. exams today.. haha... approx 9 hrs away... need ta take a break from studying.. thats y i am blogging now..

i am officially 19! haha.. nope.. its not today.. =O.. and stop guessing.. =P.. da day has passed already.. thanks guys for giving me an awesome birthday bash.. =). had 2.. haha.. the other one was for evonne whose birthday fell on the same day too.. but the best one was with my best friends in college haha.. =).. i never expected that surprise party.. thanks too to all who wished me in so many creative ways, through messages, calls, wall-writing on facebook and frenster.. =) thanks for the gifts from kerlee, hui wen and the card from "mummy" which was super meaningful.. thx. this was the most memorable birthday ever.. =)

no pics yet.. cause the i am on wireless now.. can't upload fast enough.. and i will be MIA for this 2-3 days due to exams.. and for some stupid reason the fast internet line is down at the moment.. =(.. so i can't access web pages fast enough.. haihx..

gonna be back this weekend.. 2 weeks of break.. =). lookin forward to it.. take my mind off the things i am learning in college.. which is practically really really a lot.. =)

going off now.. toodles.. and take care. =)

agape..

first post of the year

2009-01-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

haha.. ppl generally post on 1st Jan.. but no time lar for me to update.. furthermore the internet was down for the past 3 days or so.. haha..

test next week.. mid sem test.. its gonna be freakishly tough cause we are gonna be tested on new stuff... stuff that we've never learnt before.. as in during our SPM days.. *fingers crossed* praying hard..

the weather here has been so bad... its been raining continously for the past 3 days.. no floods thank God.. but i've been hit with bad flu and the worse thing was the flu didn't just come and go with a one time medication.. it disappeared, reappeared.. kinda irritating.. and its the kind of flu that leaves u tearing and having bad headaches.. haihx.. its hard to do assignments like this. but thank God things have gotten better.. =)

not much time to type a lot.. in the comp lab right now for class though the lecturer doesn't care wat we do.. haha.. i fell asleep once.. =P.. but he din seem to care.. haha..guessed he knew that wat he was teaching was super boring as well.. its those basic stuff bout computing, word processes.. excel, powerpoint.. and the next thing i am in dreamland.. =D

update more later.. =)

agape..

end of a mixed year

2008-12-31T20:42:00.002+08:00

hi peeps.. this post will sum up pretty much everything that i had been through with various people.. its been fun with u guys.. =)

The most significant event that i really will cherish and remember is AIM.. haha.. we had lots of fun then.. from preparing devotions last min, to sleeping in class, to "fellowship".. =p.. it was really one big ride of 3 months from Jan to April.. but it is an experience that i will never forget.. how much we have learnt throughout that course, how we got closer to God, how we got out of our comfort zones evangelising..and how a"muse"ing we got.. i wish i could go through that again if given a chance.. *crosses fingers*..

I remember how it was just like yesterday since I parted ways with u guys in May.. time flies. tomo will be a new year.. and i will be back in April already.. well.. can't wait to see u guys again back in KL and serve together again.. =)..

In pahang, was where i learnt how to handle my own life.. though it may be hard.. and how to be taken out of my own comfort zone and yet bear to live with it.. certainly it was not an easy path.. it was in this place i experienced my first dose of stress.. as in real stress where i could not eat, sleep nor even enjoy myself.. just felt like quitting then.. It was this place where i learnt much of my life's lessons.. of leadership, of efficiency, of being consistent.. they say college is where one grows.. I would put my hands up on that statement as a sign of agreement.. =)

To my friends in matriculation, u guys have been awesome. Through the fun we had together in and out of college, u have never failed to support and be there with me when hard times came.. we stuck together like peanut butter and bread.. =O.. u guys have taught me contentment, have taught me patience and how to be optimistic on what we have and what we are going through right now.. thanks again..

To my parents, u have been a great support this year.. it was not easy handling life in pahang, but u guys certainly made things a lot better.. thanks..

and to all in general who have made my day in one way or another.. or somehow just came into my life and slipped away.. just to let u guys know u all have made a difference someway.. =)

In a few hours, 2009 will commence.. pray that it will be another good year.. better than 2008, which has been really a year that God has blessed and shown Himself real to me.. =).. i pray that it will be the same for all of u out there as well.. God bless.. =D

agape..

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T00:09:00.002+08:00

As the title says.. MERRY CHRISTMAS!

and yeah.. theres a wallpaper i would like to put up.. but i forgot to bring my phone transfer cable back so i can't post it.. courtesy of Kerlee.. she drew it for me.. =).. thanks.. its beautiful.. hehe..

time for reflection.. for unto us a child is born.. that came to seek and save that which was lost..

agape..

Updates

2008-12-20T13:16:00.000+08:00

sorry for the long absence. =(.. lots of things to do.. gonna do some Christmas shopping tomo in Kuantan.. haha.. =).. i will update more soon.. but i wanna hear from u guys.. how was youth camp and all? update la.. i will go read.. =)

agape..

fun-ness

2008-12-15T23:08:00.002+08:00

hehe.. had an awesome weekend out in Kuantan.. was bowling, arcade-"ing" and also walking around getting my stuff.. my friends rock..x)..

p.s mummy.. ure the best.. u beat us flat in bowling with that 135.. =O..

anyways.. i am a mixture of emo and joy now.. emo cause i know that my church pals are enjoying themselves in youth camp at this moment.. 2 years they didn't have one.. and when they did.. i AM away.. well the world is round.. random things take place.. who would have thought i would leave KL so soon.. =)

well.. when i first knew i was gonna miss youth camp.. i was bushed caused youth camp has been the place where transformation takes place.. and also a great time of refreshing and fellowship.. most importantly.. ALL of the youths will get touched by God in a very special way.. I knew i was gonna miss that special touch.. but after thinking twice.. it does not matter.. God will touch anyone anywhere and anytime.. we do not have to wait till youth camp takes place.. all we have to do is to ANTICIPATE.. make every moment count and be ready.. U never know when God is gonna hit u and change your life.. *bam* just like that.. =).. isn't it exciting?

i am excited.. change is gonna come.. This IS now.. Now or never.. I am gonna renew my stand and choose to follow the Cross.. for there comes life and purpose. the reason why i breathe every breath.. and the reason my heart chooses to beat on..

agape..

tis the season to be jolly

2008-12-13T21:39:00.002+08:00

haha.. Christmas IS coming up!! hmm.. too bad this year i can't do any christmas shopping.. =(.. i will only be back in KL on the 24th.. Christmas eve adi.. too bad larh... i apologize beforehand.. i may only give out my gifts late.. cause i will only shop for them when i get back.. =)..

when Christmas is around the corner i always feel a sense of joy.. because Christmas day represents all i have on earth today.. the reason i am still living in peace and without fear.. the reason why i can stand and say i am content with what i have.. to say i am saved from the shackles of death.. with all those, who can feel sadness when Christmas is here! =D

anyway.. thats bout Christmas.. hehe

going out tomo to Kuantan to get myself some stuff.. i badly need washing powder.. something which never popped up in my shopping list before matriculation haha.. =)..

seriously need to go walk bout and do some shopping to get my mind off maths, chem etc etc.. stuffed myself until i had a bad headache and couldn't go for class on friday.. nevertheless i am fine now.. perfectly fine.. cause i had slept a lot today.. hehe.. and yeah.. thanks to kerlee for texting me.. =) and the rest who really cared so much..thx again.. hehe.. =)

thats bout all.. can't think bout what i want to write adi.. classes back on monday.. tahan one more week and thats it..BREAK!

agape..

drained out

2008-12-11T22:54:00.002+08:00

i just don feel good now.. no i am not sick.. its just that mentally and emotionally i am drained.. i don't feel very inclined to talk to ppl now.. in fact.. it will do me lots of good if i were left alone for this period of time.. need to think over some things.. but before that.. i need to settle a lot of work.. craziness.. wish i was free of this life.. kinda sick of it... the same routine everyday.. not a single day of rest.. today was terrible.. from morning to 5pm.. then co-curriculum (sports).. bball..till late evening.. i know i am complaining and ranting a lot.. but seriously.. its tough.. something that one can't understand unless he/she goes through it..

but when i am stuck here..in this kind of situation.. though it feels kinda lonely... cause i don't think anyone will understand.. but this verse came to my mind..

i look to the hills.. where does my help come from? A familiar verse from psalm.. but yet.. never fails to comfort everytime when i need it.. =).. My source of strength.. my source of hope.. in Christ alone..

agape..

updates!

2008-12-10T23:02:00.003+08:00

hey alllll.. =).. wondering where i've been huh.. truth is, i have been back in KL.. haha.. but i was back for a reason.. had to help my parents shift house.. yes.. we are shifting temporarily for 2 months.. cause the old house is undergoing some renovation.. sorry couldn't meet up with any of u.. a lot of shifting and setting up to do.. =)

my old house has no internet access haih.. =(.. no wireless networks nearby also.. so cannot steal =X..

last saturday's concert at KBU was awesome.. God was there.. seeds were sown.. =).. hope for more to come..

will be back for Christmas.. =).. though i will be missing youth camp..sob sob.. so i will see u guys then.. =).. sorry for the short update.. its late and i got lots of assignments to do.. so yeah.. take care and i will update soon.. promise.. =)

agape..

memories..

2008-12-03T22:36:00.003+08:00

was reading Annabelle's blog.. saw her post bout basketball on Sundays.. I was kinda shocked the last time when i came back and found out that we could not use the court anymore.. =(.. many memories were shared there... the fun, the joy, the laughter.. playing in the rain.. its bout the only time where we could actually enjoy ourselves as a youth group together.. Of whom i remember most Uncle (anna's dad).. We shared so many stories and heart to heart talk on the court itself.. it was that place where i learnt so many things bout managing my own life.. thanks for the lessons of life u gave me =).. had great fun playing bball with u too.. =D

7 months have actually passed since i have been here and i am starting to feel a bond with my newfound friends here.. the things we have done together ranging from the craziest stuff to the downright serious moments.. something i will cherish and remember for a long time.. in the remaining 5 months i hope to gain something more... i have learnt from many of my friends.. and the small things that i once took for granted i now hold dearest to heart.. Friends.. the remaining time that we are gonna share here together is definitely gonna fly past.. some part of me wishes that i could know u guys better, but life must go on... and i wish u guys all the best in your future undertakings especially some of u whom have decided to leave after getting your sem final results yesterday.. =)

speaking of results.. well.. congrats to those who got what they wished for.. =).. and for those who didn't.. don't be disappointed.. its not over.. there is a chance to bring change now in the ongoing sem 2.. the mid sem test is coming in January.. all the best.. =)

somehow i feel for those who didn't get what they desired even though they tried their best.. studied hard and all.. a room mate of my classmate literally like slept and slacked big time got a 3.6.. while those who studied freakin hard only got a 3.0..(max is 4.0) haih.. sometimes i don't understand too.. =( but don't give up ppl! there is always Sem 2! =)

lol.. i sound real emo.. =X.. but i can't help it.. haha..

anyways.. to more light hearted matters.. =D

Cf Concert in KBU! woohoo..

Theme : NOW (No Other Way)... (woah..cool)
Date : 6th December 2008 (saturday)
Location : KBU (Kolej Bandar Utama).. (duh..)
Time : 7 p.m
Admission : Free (o.o.. free concert!)

do come! =).. bring friends and all along to..its gonna be a great night of fun.. =D

thats bout it for this time.. =).. to those whom i owe tags to i am sorry, but i won't do it FOR NOW.. i promise k.. just keep reminding me.. =X.. i lose my memory fast.. >.<

agape..

The Aftermath

2008-12-02T15:15:00.000+08:00

Destiny fulfilled..Mission accomplished.. time to get some much needed rest after all that worrying..

agape.

D Day

2008-12-02T09:04:00.002+08:00

in less than 3 hours.. my entire purpose of coming to matriculation will be revealed.. my future paths unveiled.. but all in all let what i get glorify Your name oh Lord.. if by failing i would bring glory to U... let Your will be done..

Agape..

ushering in December

2008-12-01T15:20:00.002+08:00

have been MIA for the past few days.. been running about..i promise to update as soon as i can k..perhaps tonite..

p.s when i think of December i think of snow...x)

agape...

touched...

2008-11-27T22:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the day i actually realized.. how blessed i actually am..

was having dinner yesterday at the admin block alone.. cause it was a very late dinner.. at 930pm.. after a meeting.. was having a chat with one of the workers of the cafeteria.. and i learnt to appreciate life... that guy.. his story touched me.. he dropped out of school after finishing his standard 6.. he practically had no choice.. he had to support his family.. he helped them at rubber tapping.. at the mere age of 12.. tried the military at 20.. gave up in half a month.. he told me that he had to do whatever job that comes in the way.. whether it was cleaning plates or becoming a waiter.. he had to take it all to support his family.. now at the age of 28.. he is gonna try the military again.. wat really impacted me most was his attitude.. towards his friends who are studying.. he even helps those studying in uni financially.. yes.. whenever he is able to.. one time, his friend who was persuing medical studies gave up because his family was sick.. this guy.. he cried... this guy had a heart.. even through his own financial difficulty he would give to help others..

well.. this is only one case.. there are many out there who are like this guy.. but.. if we can't help them.. we might as well just appreciate what we have now.. if u are a student, try your best to be one.. his last advice to me before he left was to study hard and give it my best.. appreciate the privilege i have.. because many don't..

he moved my heart totally.. and i am constantly keeping him in my prayers that one day he will have an easier life.. this guy is an example of being poor materially but yet rich in heart.. I wish him all the best.. and hope he passes his military trial period.. God bless ya.. =)

Agape..

utterly speechless

2008-11-25T22:40:00.004+08:00

that's how i would put my night today.. i spent 1 hour and a half listening to or rather sleeping through a worthless talk on how to improve ourselves for the second semester.. worst thing was, it was compulsory.. the wardens would go chase those who din go to the hall.. =(.. my homework! =(.. nescafe ais it is for me tonite..

ok.. my new wife! haha.. here are the pics.. =)

i love this baby! haha... thanks dad.. =).. well.. i tried a few heavy processes on it, such as call of duty 4.. LOL.. it works even on normal graphics setting.. cool man.. awesome graphics and smooth play.. spent yesterday night downloading and customising my lappy into something like my old one.. the essential progs etc etc.. yeah.. ultimately.. i thank God.. because i can't live without a laptop here.. especially with so much paperwork to do.. =).. still have to get my eyes used the screen.. it so much more "sparkly" (lol) than my old one.. =O

tagged by annabeth..

The rules are:

1. You own a blog where you are going to post this to
2. You currently feel bored
3. You won't skip any question
4. You're Alive
5. You are going to send this to 5 friends to fill these up

Firstly describe the current you in 5 words:
1.laaazziiieee
2.drowssyyyyy
3.alive
4.streeesssseedd
5.talkative (=P)

Five things you love about life:
1.God
2.Family
3.Friends
4.Food
5.My Wife.. x)

5 Famous people you'd love to meet:
1. God
2. No one else

5 Movies you love:
1.The Dark Knight
2.Pirates of the Carribean
3.Lord of the Rings
4.Wall-e
5.Madagascar 2

5 professions you'd love to have:
1.Pharmacist
2.Biomedical Engineer
3.Own a music store.. =P
4.CEO of some big money earning company
5.House"husband".. yes i am a family man.. (HAHA)

5 Best Authors:
1.J.R.R Tolkien
2.C.S Lewis
3.Dan Brown (Yes.. though his books cause controversy but his style of writing is intriguing)
4.Tim Lahaye and Jerry B Jenkins (their left behind series are super awesome)
5. -

5 Inspirations:
1.God
2.My Family
3.Friends
4.The strong hearted in never failing to rise up when they fall
5.My "mummy" in coll.. =).. thanks for the endless advice and encouragement.. =D

5 Favourite stuff:
1.My Wife
2.My Hp
3.Books
4.Money
5.Everything that i have

5 things you hate:
1.People waking me up for nothing.
2.Being left out...
3.Being bossed...
4.Crowded places.
5.Copying my work without putting in effort in doing his/her work..

5 favourite places:
1.Home.
2.Any Mall
3.Mt Kinabalu
4.Langkawi
5.Teluk Chempedak, mostly fun with lots of friends..

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:

guys (In no particular order)

1.David Woong
2.Wah Loong
3.The guys in my gang in matriculation.. love u guys the same..
4.Church/Youth/AIM guys.. Sam, Hansel, Kah Yun etc..
5.Yi Yong (my lecture mate.. great guy..)

girls.

1.My "mummy".. we can talk for long hours man
2.Shik Wei (My debate opponent.. =P)
3.Annabeth (ever bubbly and bright.. great personality.. x)
4.Kerlee (Very strong girl.. very willing to help friends... fun to be with)
5.Janielle (very In love with God.. thanks for the memories..though short.. haha )

5 Favourite people to chat with:
1.Wah Loong
2.David
3.my "mummy"
4.Shik Wei
5.Kerlee

5 things you wana improve more about yourself:
1.My patience
2.Confidence ( I shake when i perform k.. )
3.Communication with ppl
4.Me decrease and others around me increase
5.My emotions..

5 Things you would take to a deserted Island:
1.Bible
2.My hp
3.My Wife
4.Books
5.Food and Water
*haha.. i don think i will be stuck on an island.. so most are nonsense..=P)

5 places you wana visit:
1.Australia
2.Singapore
3.Paris
4.Any island that has wonderful underwater life
5.United States

5 Things you really want:
1.A CAR
2.A good future University (my prayer)
3.Good friends
4.A content life
5.To love and to be loved..

5 Songs that make you cry the most:
1. I don cry when i hear songs.. at the most i emo. x)

5 Most fashionable friends according to you:
1.i don't care bout fashion.. seriously in matriculation how fashionable can one get..

5 people you love the most:
1.God
2.Family
3.Friends
4.-put your name here-

5 impossible dreams:
1.fly
2.be a multi-millionaire.

5 Dreams in the future:
1.To find someone who loves me for who i am..
2.Get a good education and good job..
3.A content life
4.Maintain my walk with God...
5.Support a family.. =D

now send this to 5 people:
1.Xavier
2.Hansel
3.Annabelle
4.Kerlee (yes even though u won't do it i will tag u all the same)
5.anyone who wants to do it

thats all now.. till next time.. =D

agape..

tired...

2008-11-25T02:00:00.001+08:00

i am announcing the come back of my blog.. =).. yep.. got my new laptop adi.. and can blog with it liao.. =D.. but too tired to say anything for now... have ta go sleep.. its 2am.. and i got classes tomo as usual.. blog bout everything tomo.. =)

agape..

inactiveness

2008-11-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

i not be posting for the next few days or so.. because of my "konged" laptop.. so.. until i get my new one.. YES! i am getting one haha.. =) i will not post.. too troublesome to post at the library where everyone is typically looking at what u are typing.. so yeah...till then take care guys.. x)

psalm 33:20-21

Wait in hope for the Lord. He is our help and our shield. In Him our hearts rejoice for we trust in His holy name.

Agape..

awesome weekend

2008-11-16T22:38:00.010+08:00

HEY ALL! sorry for the absence.. was away from college.. first things first! i wanna announce that my laptop has reached its due time.. i can't seem to start it up.. haihx.. i think some kind of hardware prob la.. but bottomline is i cannot use it.. so i have to blog using my friends laptop.. =)

I am back in coll now from an awesome weekend at teluk chempedak! woohoo... i think everything was kinda put in place haha.. though there were some complications in between.. i will write everything down in full.. so prepare for a long post.. =)

on friday, we went to kuantan at approx 2.30pm.. headed to megamall first.. we wanted to go bowling but found out that the bowling centre was so full, so we had to book our lanes in advance.. then we went to the arcade.. had fun there for like one hour watching ppl play and of course playing ourselves.. =P.. then headed back to the bowling centre... started bowling... a big bunch of ppl playing.. around 8 ppl.. 3 bucks per game leh.. super cheap.. a few ppl kinda surprised me..O_O.. for instance my "mummy" (kiah ngi).. her bowling style gila nice.. she really know how to aim.. she beat me.. T_T... i no face liao.. but all in all we had so much fun.. by the time we left megamall, it was around 6pm.. headed to the house that we were supposed to stay at overnight.. very far from TC (teluk chempedak)..

when we reached the house, i called the guy who rented the place to us to open up the place.. when i finished my phone call i was super stunned.. he din want to rent us the place cause we wanted to do a bbq.. but i told him on wednesday what we were gonna do (the bbq and all) and he agreed without hesitating.. now.. he was going against his word.. then we told him we wouldn't do the bbq.. still he din want to rent the place to "people like us".. =.=.. so there we were 14 people left homeless for the night.

Then someone came up with a brilliant idea.. he stayed at a place in teluk chempedak before.. a chalet.. we could do our bbq and whatever we wanted to do, and that place has WIFI too.. haha.. it took some time, but in the end all of us agreed and man, it was one decision that we never regretted.. =)

arrived at the place at 730pm.. very late.. and we haven even started the fire and all for bbq..quickly got things ready.. this bbq was held in conjuction with wah loong's birthday.. haha..
there was a lot of burnt stuff.. haha.. burnt sausages, burnt chicken, burnt nuggets, burnt fishball etc etc.. =O... great chefs we were.. =D.. then it started to rain.. so potong steam.. moved everything under a porch.. and continued.. then we ended the whole thing at 1130pm.. =)..
went upstairs into the aircon chalet.. quite big.. enuff to house all of us.. then we had a plan to surprise wah loong with a cake..

1. one friend took him out for a walk..
2. one said"crap.. we don have matches"..
3. another 2 went out with matches and met them walking on the way back. o_O.. so fast..
4. took him for another walk.. gave him the most natural excuses like "lets go buy water"..
5. one of us grabbed the lighter, and of course water.. thank God for the nearby perormance at the beach that diverted his attention..
6. i ran all the way back.. lighted the cake, woops. the candles on the cake. and waited at the porch.. offed all the lights.. =)..
7. the friends who accompanied him came back without him! O_O.. said he went to the office for wireless.. i was like "OMG! why??!"
8. retrieved him for that place and yeah.. everything fell in place.. haha.. surprised him.. and yeah... the cake was "CHOC INDULGENCE" .. -drool-

the preparation

da cake

after clearing up.. we played blackjack.. haha.. we had a penalty.. the gamble was mouthfuls of food.. 1-5 mouthfuls.. first we had fried meehoon.. we couldn't gamble money of course.. then we had cake.. twisties.. haha.. one guy had to take 35 mouthfuls of the cake.. LOL.. and everybody was so full from the bbq and all.. fun larh.. really.. =D

35 mouthfuls. creepy.

after all the fun and all.. 6 of us decided to take a night walk on the beach.. haha.. yes.. at around 3am.. lol.. first time i went to the beach so late..

went to mcds.. got myself a coke.. needed a drink badly after all that cake.. o_O.. then we headed to the beach chairs in front of the Hyatt.. haha.. we weren't supposed to be there.. its hotel property but yeah.. its 3AM k.. =O. lay there.. man.. so comfortable.. with the night breeze, the sound of the waves.. ah.. nearly fell asleep.. that IS life.. nothing to worry bout... =D

after relaxing there for 1 hr, the guard came.. alas.. got "chased".. went to mcds, sat down and talked till 5am.. one of the 6 was my chem lecturer.. a young chinese teacher.. she shared with us loads of stuff.. then we headed back the chalet.. slept.. yes.. 14 ppl in a room.. 8 on the beds, 6 on the floor.. and guess what i caught?

haih. remember him from the kissing in my pesta tanglung post? the guy on the left.. X).. u can see the guy on the right trying to "reject" him with his right hand.. candid moment man. =D

we wanted to wake up at 6am the next day to watch the sunrise. but at 6 when the alarm rang, everybody was literally dead.. i told my friend to just off it.. haha..

at 10am. everybody was fresh and ready to take breakfast.. went to the nearby coffee shop, had curry mee..quite nice, and then went for a walk at the beach.. here.. i will let pics do the talking as i am a fan of scenary.. =D

footprints in the sand... love this shot.. haha.

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My chem lecturer, Miss Aw

the words say "I love u.. some gurls name" lol..

Yi Yong

so.. we had lots of fun.. including playing a game of scissors, paper, stone.. in the water.. haha.. the person who loses must take a step deeper into the water.. we were fully clothed.. but yeah.. heres a video haha..

ok.. i know its dungu and dumb.. say watever u like.. haha.. but we ARE creative.. =P

and i saved the best picture for the last.. cause i find it quite meaningful.. =)

a little gurl.. sitting in front of a vast pool of water.. try to capture the meaning of this photo.. haha... its for yourself to imagine in watever way u like.. =)

all in all.. we had great fun.. i would name this as my best moment in matriculation so far.. hope for more to come.. =)

agape..

busy busy busy

2008-11-12T23:21:00.002+08:00

yep.. the title states it all.. =)

after yesterday's "election" for the 2009 Chinese New Year festival committee, i was kinda satisfied with the outcome.. Wah Loong was selected as project chairman, something i AM very happy about =D. while for myself i am vice secretary =O.. yes. a girl's job =.=" but anyways, i was chosen out of pure revenge.. ~.~ cause i sorta aided in the election of Kerlee as Sec, so practically i got pointed out first hand ~.~.. am also very glad that she is the Secretary.. haha.. go Kerlee! girl power!~ =D.. u can do it de!... =)

But all these comes at a price.. =(... i got lots of paperwork to do and proposal to settle before this Friday... sob sob.. =(.. but somehow i am super glad that i got to do something different.. than being on the tech team again or something.. one thing that disappoints me this year is that we actually have the largest pool of talents as compared to the previous years.. but where is the unity? last year's batch had to strive to come out with performances, but they were willing to learn.. and they were united in their decisions.. and they were rewarded with the grandest Pesta Tahun Baru Cina ever so far.. =)..

I mean come on larh.. even if one doesn't wanna get involved, just showing up at meetings and rehearsals itself means a great deal.. we are the minority here, and we must take the stand, to make ourselves heard, to show the majority what we are made up off. I personally think that in matriculation, there are only 2 major events.. one was the Tanglung festival and now is the Chinese New Year festival.. and this is our last chance to give it our all.. to continue what the seniors have fought to preserve all these years.. i am really praying that this legacy won't fall in our hands.. but will be continued and not only that, we will leave something for our juniors other than the memories that we will of course cherish.. =)

mind my ranting.. but i am gonna give my all to see this work and its my desire to see the rest of the people do so as well...whether the role is big or small, lets work hard together to make this a success for the sake of the generations to come k? =)

agape..

the end draws near

2008-11-10T23:00:00.003+08:00

irony? 2 posts in a day with contrasting titles? not really.. this was what i was waiting to share about.

as a disclaimer to the above topic, whatever i say here is what i think and express.. thats what a blog is for anyways right? if u don't believe what u read, i don't blame u.. In fact, i can be flamed.. But i am willing to take that risk.. for the sake of those who take heed of what i pen down after this..

What is the state of the world today friends.. look around u.. economical crisis.. war... people are looking for a "saviour" to come and make a change.. I am genuinely not surprised at the mess we are all in now. Why? because from young i have read and tried to understand the contents of Revelation, the last book of the Bible until today. The signs are all there. I mean how? Isn't it amazing how things are falling into place right now? Look at Matthew 24. i will take just an excerpt of it.

You will hear of wars and rumors of wars, but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come. Nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom. There will be famines and earthquakes in various places. All these are the beginning of birth pains.

Matt 24: 6-8

I mean. to think logically.

- how can the Bible contain something that will happen way in the future? put ourselves in the shoes of the people living back then. They must think it was insane. But its happening now.

Look at the recent US presidential election. Obama pledged to bring a change. In other words, save the world from its current state.. economically, socially, to bring about peace. In fact, I have no doubt that he will definitely be able to do that. People are so desperate to bring about that change, to save themselves without realising how demoralizing the price that they would have to pay. Gay marriages are now legal. Abortion can be done without parental consent. Abortion in America stands at 50 million a year WITH parental consent. What will happen now that it is without?

and just to note, abortion is not something as easy as pie. I have watched a video of how a live baby gets cut up in the mother's womb. Imagine, taking a pair of scissors, snipping off the legs, arms and finally the head, and all of these contents go down a suction tube. That is a LIFE. what right do we have in the first place to take the life of a human being, especially one who is helpless and can't escape from being killed?

and for my fellow brothers and sisters, there is one important point that i guess u all will know. The signing of the peace treaty with Israel. It was predicted in the Bible that once a peace treaty was signed between the antichrist and the Israelites, the tribulation period would begin.. Rahm Emanuel has just been elected Chief of Staff in the White House, in other words Obama's right hand man. He has the blood of an Israelite, and he's a jewish. Even Israel now supports Obama's move and hail Rahm " Our Man in the White House". In one way or the other, it somehow makes things easier for the prophecy to come to pass anytime soon right?

i am not saying that Obama is the antichrist. There is no reason for him to be so. But things are happening and it is happening fast. What has been stated in the Bible is coming true one by one. The end draws near people.. To my fellow brothers and sisters, work hard while it is still day, for when night approaches, it is too late.. To all readers.. it is still not too late.. u can still make your stand today.. before the end takes place. I myself am actually excited to see what is in store for us all in the future.. I would like to state that i am not a holy fanatic or anything. I believe in what i see. And i trust u too are seeing the same things that i do happening.. if u need help in understanding things, or perhaps confused..do not hesitate to leave something in the cbox.. =)

agape..

hence it all begins

2008-11-10T16:33:00.003+08:00

well.. thus begins sem 2 in my college haha.. well i would say the mood for study is not yet there.. life is still pretty boring around here haha.. being the fact that we still don't have homework.. but alas.. its my last 5 months here... at this point i believe i am starting to like the life here.. the people.. the fun we have together.. but anyways.. yeah.. for today, classes did not proceed yet.. in fact, there was just a brief introduction and the lecturer let us off..

I would say.. thank God for giving me good lecturers.. really.. i am really glad that i got such lecturers.. they are happy, constantly cracking jokes and confident at what they do and what they teach.. and they never fail to encourage the students as well.. haha.. thats a good sign right? =P

anyways.. i will post bout something else tonight.. its something that i have been burdened to share and i believe that it is a now or never share thing..

agape..

no mood

2008-11-08T21:32:00.005+08:00

lol.. pretty emo topic harh.. haha.. truth is yeah.. i am pretty moody right now.. haha.. =)..

well.. what do u do with a person who has low self esteem? i mean.. its so hard to advise these kind of people.. i really find it hard.. i've been trying.. but somehow she tends to overthink..a lot.. i worry.. praying that she'll find a way to overcome it..

going out tomo to Kuantan.. hopefully things will change for the better.. and tomorrows gonna be a better day! =)

agape..

remainder of hols

2008-11-07T19:18:00.003+08:00

sorry for the absence! haha.. was in Kuantan overnight and practically din have any internet access =.=.. but nvr mind.. i am back now! well.. i have MUET tomorrow.. again.. for the other components other than speaking which was done wayyyy back on thursday.. haha. in fact it was just yesterday.. =P..

on thurs, had muet.. the topic was : "a 19 year old friend of yours wants to get married.. you advise her that now its not the time and she must gain more experience first.. give reasons to support your point.. " my first reaction was "!" really.. MARRIAGE? =.=.. nvm.. but thank God everything was ok..haha.. well.. at least i think it was.. =P..

after that, went down to Kuantan with a bunch of friends on the bus.. we only had to wait half an hour compared to those who have waited for an hour and a half.. haha.. then went to Megamall.. met up with a friend, and we went for lunch and had a nice walk around megamall.. then we took a walk to East Coast Mall.. (yes another mall but this definitely is posh"er" than the rest) haha.. restocked some daily goods at Carrefour and headed to my friends place for the nite.. canceled our plans to go to the beach.. thank God too.. it started raining haha.. =)

played mathmagic.. 3 rounds of it.. yes.. O_O.. and haha.. it was fun.. =P.. then had a nice talk on how was our life before coming to matriculation and all.. though i would say that i didn't have much to do in the house coz of no internet access but i enjoyed myself.. i am starting to like a slow life haha.. really.. slow, relaxed.. knowing when u wake up in the morning there is practically nothing to do.. and yeah.. that was how it went about in my friend's place..

came back around 4pm today.. going out again to watch 007 one of these days... muahaha.. i am ready to get squeezed again.. =D hope by all the squishing about on the bus i get thinner.. =O

agape..

back

2008-11-05T22:40:00.004+08:00

well.. i came back today.. ALONE on the bus =.=.. it sucks la.. really.. being alone.. then u have to take the taxi back alone also which caused me a BOMB.. Rm 12.. usually split among 4.. haihx.

First things first... Happy 18th birthday annabeth! (there are 2 annas that i know.. better make it clear.. O_O) though i may not have known u for long, but yeah.. we got the whole sem 2 to get to know each other better! =)

Why am i back.. becoz of the stupid.. MUET. =.= i have to be back 2 full days before the others just for a half an hour speaking test.. syokness.. well.. on the bright side, i am going to Kuantan to get my stuff and staying overnight.. =).. so i hope i have fun there.. haha.. =)

tagged by anna.. and yet again.. =)

1. Whats your ambition?
hmm.. good question.. i don't know.. =P
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2. How often do you think of commiting suicide?
never.. haha.. i am content with life.. and find it pointless to give it up..
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3. Do you think you have enough confidence?
obviously not.. i shake in my knees even when i perform...though i have done it many times..
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4. How many babies you want?
lol.. 3!
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5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes.. have a photo of it in one of my posts..
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6. What is your goal for this year
finish of the year on a high note.. getting good results.. enjoying myself thoroughly here in Pahang as it will be my last 5 months.. =)

.7. Do you believe in eternity love?
eternity? hmm.. one things for sure, i don believe in love at first sight..
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8. What do you say about your life now?
so far so good. (i think)
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9. What feeling do you love most?
the feeling of being cared for, knowing someone is standing there for u, when u go through storms, and even through times of joy.. do i sound poetic? =P
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10. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?
love God, love me for who i am.. thats all.. =)
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11. Is there anything u wanna tell the ppl u hate?
God bless you.. =D
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12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
yes i do.. i never liked being dumped off, and hope that days like that will never come.

13. What does flying means to you?
lol..
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14. What do you crave for the most currently?
CHOCOLATE.. (don ask questions.. =P.. present me with some.. =D harhar.. )
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15. Where would ur ultimate vacation spot be?
aussie! =)
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16. Describe the person who tagged u in 7 words.
a person with awesome personality and joy..hehe.. exactly 7..
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17. What have you done to yourself make yourself happy?
spoil some pianos.. muahaha.. =P
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18. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
i can't foresee..maybe dead? who knows right? really.. =P
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19. What is your lucky number?
well.. don really have one.. but fav num yes.. 16!
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20. What is your favourite food?
char koey teow, abc, nasi lemak...western rocks too.. sorry i am really malaysian to the core.. x)

before i end.. i was with David and a bunch of people doing devotions in his coll field.. we were going through Psalm 1.. isn't it interesting how things we have read in the Bible seem to have diff meaning if we meditate it over and over again? I never find God's word to be boring haha.. for me I discover new things as i read it.. thats y they say that one can't finish reading the entire Bible.. hehe..

Agape...

hols..

2008-11-02T18:20:00.003+08:00

hey peepS!

WELCOME NOVEMBER!... o.o.. time flies.. its only 2 months away from 2009..

back for hols.. so much for SEM BREAK.. when i only get till wed.. shouldn't sem break last the longest... =.=

anyways i am home home home home home.. away from stress stress stress stress stress..

well.. sad to say.. i am gonna lose a good friend of mine whos leaving for aussie permanently.. its called migration.. =S.. i was shocked when i heard the news some time back.. but if God has willed for it to happen so be it.. be praying for u Janielle! thx for the memories and have a great time adjusting and restarting a new life in aussie!

i will be actively blogging from the 6th onwards... lazy to blog at home as always.. =)

agape..

phew..

2008-10-30T11:59:00.002+08:00

what a relief man.. chem today was not too bad.. though there WERE questions that i really din know how to answer.. but those only occupied like 5/15 marks per question. and that also without working.. plus working, the dmg done is not too bad i guess.. hehe.. =) praise God.. ^^

but i would like to complain

how to u get the number of mol, n from PV = nRT

where P is given V is given R is given but T is not.. =.=. nonsense. don't tell me assume room temp. the question din even state.. nevermind.. i just have to let it go.. haihx..

On the bright side! i am coming back tomo..after my physics paper.. hehe.. till wednesday la.. for my sem break.. then i have to go for MUET on thurs.. i have yet to find out whether i am allowed to stay in the coll.. from thurs till coll reopens for sem 2.. It has been long since the last time i came back...bout a month plus back... really.. haha... so much for.. "why i see andrew every week??!".. =P..

I've learned 2 things..
1) this is not SPM... SPM don study still can pass (seriously).. for matriculation, every point must be very detailed.. your explanations etc..
2) Sem 2 will be much harder.. so need ta start studying a bit earlier..

agape.. =)

random 2

2008-10-29T20:08:00.004+08:00

WAHLAU.. maths 2 was CRAZIEEEEE.. nvr mind la.. i knew how to do all but the last 3 ques.. haihx.. compared to yesterday's paper.. this was like miles away.. nevermind... all of us agreed that this paper is insane.. =P..

well... whats the point of doing so many past year questions.. none came out! =(

I HATE DY/DX.. I HATE INTEGRATION..

random

2008-10-29T11:02:00.002+08:00

finished chem paper just now.. not too bad.. still ok.. can pull through la.. now preparing for maths 2... filled with calculus questions.. haih.. i really fear that paper man.. its scary..

yesterday night, studied quite a lot.. but i din know which to study.. cause i was having math and chem today.. did maths first and then chem cause chem was all objective today.. the written paper is tomo.. well.. studied till 1am +.. intended to go on, but i somehow fell asleep without realising it... i wanted to get up at 6am and continue my studies.. i did get up coz i had to wake someone up as well.. but dozed off again.. finally woke up at 730am.. pretty late adi.. rushed through wat i could take in..

chilling.. 3 down.. 5 to go.. and its over.. but 5 tough ones! T_T.. i don know whether the chance of getting a 4.0 is still there or not.. i can only pray and hope for the best.. leaving everything to my heavenly Father... =)

back to more calculus.. I HATE LIMITS!!!!!.... I <33333 DY/DX and INTEGRATION!~!!

agape..

50th post

2008-10-28T11:52:00.002+08:00

haha.. yea.. i din know i posted so many adi.. i tot i was around 30.. i don't want my 50th post to go this way but haih.. nyways.. exams kicked off today.. jus had my english paper.. later maths 1.. then back to study study study.. tomorrows gonna be another day... i hope i will survive.. haha.. won't post long.. jus type a bit to relieve my stress.. back to work in another 10 mins.. watching my friends do math exercises jus adds on to my stress... they seem to know so much.. i jus stop and stare~

don wanna post liao.. i jus wrote a summary and an essay.. if i write anymore i will go boom.. =(.. ok la.. thats bout it..

agape..

bored...

2008-10-23T22:36:00.003+08:00

"whats on the breakfast menu today? "

"paper"

"whats on the lunch menu today?"

"paper"

"whats on the dinner menu today?"

guess?

i have turned into a human recycle bin..

haih.. i never ever studied this hard.. not even for my SPM.. honestly speaking, during my SPM time, there was still time to put down my books and slack.. here i study more than 6 hrs a day.. with minimum rest.. =(... and so many of my friends have gone back home to spend this 4 days of hols to study.. btw.. tomo will be a public holiday for ppl in Pahang.. Sultan's birthday..

on the bright side.. i get to wake up at whatever time i want to.. haha.. on one occasion, i slept till 1pm haha=X.... but.. i would say this.. it will be all worth it in the end larh.. work hard for this week, enjoy for the next 3 months or so again =D

i am here to announce my inactiveness due to my finals next tuesday.. i may blog if i need to relax.. but don expect to get any new updates or some photo upload spree.. blog to rant sounds more like it now.. =)

and to all who are facing final exams, SPM, etc, my prayers are with u all.. may God grant u wisdom and strength to overcome this mountain before u.. =).. God bless! =)

agape..

emo

2008-10-20T22:40:00.004+08:00

i am practically eating paper.. ~.~

8 hrs of books.. with 3 hours dedicated to maths.. =(.. did maths until this happened =_=

y = 2x
dy/dx = x

@.@ yeah.. that bad

tagged by anna... =S

1. Would you marry for money?
duh.. no.. lol

2. Have you had braces?
yes..

3. Could you live without a computer?
err.r..r... *thou shalt not lie* .. ok no..

4. If you could live in a different decade which would it be?
errr.. haha.. i love it as it is now haha =)

5. Do you drink enough water?
ehe.. 8 cups a day.. ngam ngam larh..

6. Do you wear shoes in the house or take em off?
off.. used to.. now in my room..haih. no one cares..

7. What are your favorite fruits?
...Mangoes,honeydews and watermelon!

8. What is your favorite place to visit?
Langkawi! so far larh.. got beach, got night life.. enuff =)

9. Are you photogenic?
erm no.. =)

10. Do you dream in color or black and white?
color =D. glad i do..

11. Why do you take surveys?
coz i was tagged =.=

12. Do you drink alcohol?
erm. is shandy alcohol?

13. What is the most beautiful language?
omg, lol, rofl, =.=, >.<, =.=".. O_O.. LOVE THOSE MAN..

14. Do you like being kissed when you are asleep?
ugh

15. WHAT do you like MOST: Sunrise or sunset?
sunset.. =)

16. Do you want to live until you're 100 yrs old?
if only i could regenerate

17. Is a flat stomach important to you?
a spare tyre sounds great.. more springy =D

18. What body part of the opposite sex is sexiest? eerm.
-blush-

19. When watching scary movies are the lights on or off?
offffffff..

20. Do you believe in magic?
nope. miracles yes. =)

21. Do you believe in ghosts?
nope!

22. Do you like to watch cartoons?
errr. *yes*

23. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?
don remember haha =)

24. Do you write poems?
nah.. poems are plain goosebumpish

25. Do you snore?
no but i make noises =X

26. You sleep more on your back, front,or sides?
i get up jig around and drop back

27. Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
poodle =)

28. Are you basically a happy person?
combination of happy and emo.. happily emo!

29. Are you tired?
yesssssssssss..

30. Did you drink anything with caffeine?
seldom.. though i know of ppl who do.. ERHEM

31. How do you take your coffee?
sip it..

32. How many landline/cellphones do you have in your house?
...me 1, sis 1, mom 1, dad 1.. plus the house phone. don ask me to do math liao @.@

33. Do you get along with your parents?
yep!

34. Do u smoke?
No, I dont.

35. Do you have a kitty?
hmm.. don mind having one..

36. Have you ever had a birthday party?
sadly nope.. haha.. but i don mind! =D

37. What do you do when you're sad?
emo

38. What do you need most now?
maggi mee

39. What song are you listening to now?
nothing

40.what are you craving right now?
char siew =X

I AM TAGGING HANSEL!
have fun larh u.. question 30 and 31 shud be fun =D

agape.

twisted

2008-10-18T23:17:00.003+08:00

been an eventful last two days.. reason i have not been blogging is because i have erm haha.. twisted my hand and can't type.. =O.. fell down on the basketball court.. accidently tripped when i wanted to make a steal.. fell backwards and on my left hand.. =(.. that night was like the worst man.. couldn't sleep at all.. whatever position i placed my hand, it seemed to reply with a burst of pain.. clearly misbehaving.. =(..

next day which was yesterday, went to see the doctor first thing in the morning, said wasn't a fracture, but i hurt some soft tissues.. and twisted my wrist... couldn't even move my hand up and down without slight pain.. gave me some cream and pain killers, as well as gastric medicine just in case the pain killers decided to bring out excessive HCl in my stomach..

well.. praise God, today my hand is much better haha.. able to move about though still not able to lift stuff.. thx to my friends who helped me (p.s.. being one-handed is really argh.. ).. and also one particular friend who helped me apply the cream and dress up the wrist.. yes.. nowadays.. bandages also got fashion.

our coll had some kind of exhibition for the past 2 days.. involving all the local uni and some private unis.. got some info on the courses and stuff like that la.. though no registration was open yet.. =)

buried myself under integration and differentiation today.. who created these man... too free.. sadly.. still part of the exams.. moving on to chemi and physics tomo.. swallow the whole thing.. no time to chew adi.. hopefully it will stay down till i purge it out in a weeks time.. =)

will keep things posted.. study break this week.. free from lectures, but not from books. =(.. till then!

agape..

the beginning of the end..

2008-10-15T20:19:00.003+08:00

finals in 2 weeks. =(... what more can i say.. the 7x hours spent in lectures per subject comes down to a mere 4 hr test.. (2 papers, 2 hrs each). =.=

Its odd.. haha.. sem 1 is over! haha.. y do i say so.. coz.. since this is the last week of classes, and the lecturers have practically finished the syllabus, a lot of them are cancelling class, and just for this week, they don't even care whether u go to class or not haha.. understandable la.. some prefer to go into hiding and bury themselves under piles of books.. =S.. i can't believe it man.. its like the books i bought, still quite clean, cause i've never done exercises inside, but used it just for extra information purposes.. and i can throw em all away after the test.. haih.. of course i will not throw la.. selling it sounds nicer.. =) its like time flies.. it was just like recently i broke the news that i will be away in Pahang.. and half of the whole matriculation.. gone *poof* just like that..

I have been watching Heroes and i loved it! haha.. currently in season 2.. episode 7... i know i am outdated and its in season 3 right now.. but i will stop at episode 7 first.. =) after the finals, i will watch right up to the most recent episode.. =).. even though the superpowers are ridiculous, but it reminds me that we are all special.. each unique.. =)

I have this song that has been stuck in my head a long time, i don't know where it is from.. if someone can enlighten me on this i will be deeply grateful.. it is familiar.. but i don't know the title nor the publisher/artist.. and the last sentence, capture me *something*.. i forgot whether its capture me again or capture me with grace, correct me if i am wrong hehe... =)

I need U Jesus
Come to my rescue
Where else can i go
Theres no other name by
Which i am saved
Capture me again

I will follow U
(this world has nothing for me..) repeat

Agape....

pesta tanglung kmph 2008

2008-10-12T02:39:00.018+08:00

warning : long post ahead

well.. haha.. lots have been happening.. starting with the basketball competition i mentioned in my last post.. well.. praise God.. we got 2nd.. haha.. we lost the final 15-12.. but anyways.. the hardest match i would say was the quarter final match.. we drew one of the toughest teams... 5-5.. the match had to be decided by sudden death free throws.. tension man.. haha.. but we won that.. =)

ok.. down to the title.. its been one long preparation and it all came down to that 1 and a half hours.. but needless to say.. everything went well.. all glory to God.. there were a bit of technical errors here and there.. with the most major one happening when i was on the keyboard.. one of the technical crew accidently kicked the cable.. resulting in a power cut of the keyboard.. so there was like no sound for 3-5 secs.. a period of awkwardness.. but nobody seemed to care.. so nothing major really.. =)

i won't say much.. hehe.. let the pics do the talking..

well... b4 the start.. on the way to the hall in the evening.. caught this wonderful phenomena of the suns rays penetrating a cloud.. resulting in a small rainbow in the middle of the cloud and the rays of light.. unfortunately.. the rainbow could not be seen here in this pic.. too detailed..

the wonderful backdrops.. credit to the deco team..

ok.. heres the part where i will tell a bit what actually happened coz i was too busy running about and couldn't get pictures of the actual events of the night..

it all started with the speeches and everything as usual, then moved on to the performances, which included a drama, poem recital, harmonica solo, choir team... a total of 4 performances.. then.. each student that attended that night were given a lantern each where they learnt how to light the lantern.. and then the students, director, lecturers all took a night walk around the college with lanterns.. a beautiful sight which i could not catch cause there was the cleaning up to do.. argh.. anyways.... got lots of pics from the aftermath.. hehe =)

Aftermath

me and wah loong.. my best pal since young..

clockwise : yen, me, wah loong, kerlee, joyce haha..

joyce, wah loong, me, kiah ngi.. =)

me and my ketua for the pa (jiang).. worked well together.. =)

the lecturer behind the whole thing.. miss aw... we love ya lots.. =)

can u believe the person in the middle is a lecturer haha.. she looks much younger than her age.. thats a compliment... =)

love this pic.. so funni haha.. and yes.. he looks totally stunned.. =O

the lecturer behind the pa.. mr tiger they call him.. i also don know why.. =O

syok sendiriness..

from left : brian, elaine, yen, kiah ngi, joyce, meng soon, wah loong.. most of them are my kuliah pals..

wah loong, me, yen, brian.. =)

other misc. pictures..

the choir conductor.. u did great on your first time conducting.. =)

hah caught in act.. =P

the complete album is in my friendster link.. can't post too many on the blog haha.. =).. the pictures were totally picked randomly.. so if your pic is not in here, don't feel bad.. haha.. its in my friendster! =)

overall.. we had a blast! thanks all for a successful pesta tanglung and thx for the memories! =D

and finally.. heres the shot that reminds me of God's promises.. =)

taken when we were stuck and had to take shelter under the astaka... =) man.. it was so heavy... we couldn't wait and had to run back.. haha.. quite a number of us.. all wet.. haha.. but it was fun.. =)

till my next post.. =)

agape..

wishing for 25 hours....

2008-10-09T10:13:00.003+08:00

didn't really go online these past few days.. its been a long 3 days.. though it sort of passed by quickly.. but yeah.. lots have been happening around me and with me.. very tiring 3 days..

first... pesta tanglung is coming up tomorrow and the bustle of preparations have been like so hectic.. from choir practices to making slideshows.. and just yesterday night we had a final rehearsal of the actual night's programme. running all over the place and all.. but still managed to pull through and that ended around 12am..

before the rehearsal.. had a basketball competition as well.. managed to get pass round 1 and into the quarters. praise God..so practically i had a full day yesterday.. came back from classes.. instantly got myself changed and went for the competition.. crazy..

Thank God this craziness will only last this week.. after that.. things will be back to normal... even more normal than normal get it? hehe

blogging now jus to fill in the time that i have.. the gap between classes and all.. so yeah.. thats bout it.. =)

agape..

woops

2008-10-05T23:14:00.005+08:00

lol.. 1 week no post.. lol... one of the longest terms of absence.. no excuses.. was back for hols, din really visit my own blog also haha.. too busy enjoying myself in so many places.. tonight, i won't be sharing to u guys yet what i have done with my 1 week worth of hols.. hehe.. too many things to do.. =) will be back in a short while.. but i WILL do a tag.. i owe a lot liao... =O

::instructions::

Never see the questions before you arrange the names - all mentioned below are TAGGED!

1. kah yun
2. janielle

3. david woong

4. jing hui

5. zhi min

1. How did you meet 1?

since the day we started knowing who we were..

2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?

8 or higher?

3. How long have you known 4?
middle school.. (sekolah menengah la..=P)

4. How do you know number 3?

Lol.. though we have not crossed paths for long, but hes one of my best friends.. =)

5. Where's 5?

taylors? doing his um.. law ~.~

6. A fact about number 1?

um.. Peter Crouch"ish"?

7. Who is 4 going out with?

lol.. um.. last saw him, no one. don know now? maybe not who... more?

8. What does 1 do for a living?

serves his heavenly father to gain riches in heaven.. =)

9. Would you live with number 3?

lol.. we could.. haha.. (pls don think wrongly..=S)

10. What do you like about number 2?

awesome girl, a heart for God, sweet girl. =)

11. Do you miss number 5?

well.. yeah, but not in erm. u know.

12. Would you make out with number 4?

lol.. answer that ureself.

13. What's your opinion on number 2?

well.. nothing negative.. hehe..special la.. =)

14. What's your favourite memory with number 5?

lol.. uerm.. =S..

15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?

fast and pray.

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?

yeah.. of course haha.. =)

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?

nope

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
yea.. mamak nights.. =)

19. Who have you known the longest?

no. 1

20. What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?

armageddon

21. How often do you talk to 1?

At least once a month.. haha.. if i come back more often, then less than that.. =)

22. What about 2??
erm.. cyber chat considered? than its like once a month..

23. Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?

-no comment-

24. Would you go on a date with number 5?

lol

25. Do you dream about number 2?

maybe? can't remember

26. What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?
err. show off driving license? o.O

27. What have you done for/to 1 that the person never forgets?

duuno??

28. What's 3's hobby?

playing music? O_O

thats all.. phew

Agape.. =)

home

2008-09-28T16:10:00.002+08:00

whew.. sorry for the period of absence.. =0

well.. as usual.. great to be home.. with a whole week of hols 10 days to be exact, i am ready to let it all out haha.. jus b4 my exam starts the end of october!

so far nothing significant has been happening.. but i would like to note bout yesterday's youth service.. Really awesome and powerful youth service.. Moved my heart to see young people really dedicating themselves to DESTROYING their monsters...(yes.. oppressing is not enuff) It will be my prayer that this will be a permanent change and not just a spur of the moment.. =)

well.. off to basketball with the youth! till then!

Agape..

HUNGREEEH

2008-09-25T20:37:00.003+08:00

that concludes my 1 day puasa.. haha.. really.. i was so tempted to grab a biscuit or 2.. with my water bottle literally staring in my face.. very hard to resist.. yeah.. but still managed to do a full puasa! haha.. =)..

well... to sum it all up this week.. sleepy, busy, long, haha.... but i am coming back for a week! yes.. raya break.. and after that the rest of the semester will be pretty much back to the same old life.. no more hiding to eat... (yes.).. we do not fear but we must at least respect ma.. haha.. bus is at 1230pm tomorrow.. hopefully back by 4.. yep!

See u guys soon!

Agape..

puasa experience

2008-09-24T06:04:00.002+08:00

hehe.. decided to try to puasa for one day.. just to experience how it is to fast for almost the whole day.... woke up at 520am.. just to eat something and drink some water and 530am.. it all began.. that explains why i am blogging at this hour.. haha.. too awake to go back to sleep.. so yeah.. talk bout the whole experience more when this ends at around 715pm.. see ya! =)

Agape..

a sea of expressions..

2008-09-21T23:06:00.004+08:00

inhumane shouts of despair, sorrow, joy and all the mixed emotions filled the night air.. i couldn't take it anymore.. but still i stayed.. unbearable.. it was the worst i've ever seen. Cannot be described by words.. sent me into a total state of shock that i was in the midst of such chaos.. When i saw the people around me.. sudden changes in emotions and expressions totally left me speechless.. literally expressed to the max. A rare sight. Actions potrayed would have made them top class actors but sigh. Such talent gone to waste..

"what u get from sitting in the midst of 100 people at the cafe in college watching a Chelsea vs MU match"

p.s the match ended 1-1 btw =)..
Agape..

proclamation

2008-09-21T01:31:00.006+08:00

haih.. what a day man.. extra classes and to top up with that rehearsal for Pesta Tanglung that is gonna be held a week after raya.. sob.. being second in charge of the p.a system unit, the task is tough.. really.. from 830pm-1230am we were sweating it out in the control room upstairs, trying to put everything into place, from the lighting, to the slide shows, to stage management team, to the whole order of the event.. lol.. found out one thing.. quite fun though.. haha.. the lights are manually operated.... not auto.. wheeeee.. get to play with the lights.. =O.. then had a slight minum teh session with the whole team who worked hard tonight.. =)

now to the title of the blog.. =)

we say so many times that we will stand for God no matter what happens.. but sometimes.. i ask.. are we actually ready for that? by asking does not mean i deter in my faith but i mean.. its like even in front of your friends... i admit that i seldom speak of my faith in front of my friends.. even when good things happen to me.. i do not often give all glory to God.. even if i thank God myself bout His goodness and blessing, what glory does God have if we don testify?

If we can't even speak of God or proclaim His name openly, what hope do we have of giving our lives to Him? i mean put it this way.. if u were persecuted and tortured for believing, one day freedom of worship abolished, will we stand strong till the end of the day? easy to say yes. But when i gave second thoughts bout it, i finally understand y many people chose the easy way and gave up God.. for the sake of comfort and end to the pain on earth.. it is not easy enduring the torture.. imagine the pain u would go through.. and u wish to die but they won't allow it.. if u had to be nailed to a cross one day, would u go through that pain for Jesus? think bout it..

But i can come to a conclusion.. that earthly pain is nothing compared to that of the pain that will last for eternity.. truly it is not worth it to give up God.. because He had gave His son first for us.. and Jesus suffered so much more pain than normal man could ever bear.. lash after lash.. nail after nail, all for our sakes.. Thats the reason why i can say i will stand up to the end when the time has come that all Christians will be persecuted for His sake.. Not because i fear of going to hell when i die.. heaven is just a bonus when we stand on God's side.. Its not because of heaven that i believe in Him.. Its His ultimate sacrifice that has moved me and greatly struck me..

Are we ready to make our stand today? To renew our commitment? If it is, this song will be the exact cry of our hearts..

I'll stand,
With arms high and heart abandoned,
in awe of the one who gave it all
I'll stand
My soul Lord to U surrendered
All I am is Yours..

Agape..

relaxed

2008-09-18T20:28:00.003+08:00

this week was kinda relaxed.. =) with wednesday as a holiday.. I don't like wednesdays.. haha.. the schedule is jus too tight... =(.. but yeah.. saturday classes again this week =(

Went to another cafe to taste the food.. quite good though =D.. had nasi paprik if anyone of u have ever heard of it.. hehe.. and its only 3 bucks.. worth it.. really.. =) And during dinner i caught my shot of the day =)

A light saber? nah.. just a stack of cups.. but.. ridiculously stacked..=.= these guys shud attempt a record or something.. Go make Malaysia proud... =O.. and yeah.. looking at the picture the cups looked like they were gonna fall anytime, but the guy managed to keep it balanced and it didn't fall.. =) if it did, the people u see there won't be spared from getting splashed with sirap ais.

Out of the depths of my heart I will sing,
Magnificient, glorious,
Wonderful King,
Love indescribable,
Steadfast, unfailing,
Reign in my life
For eternity.

Agape..

45 years..

2008-09-16T00:50:00.006+08:00

happy 45th year since the formation of Malaysia!~

yeah.. long way since 16th Sept 1963. yet. today we are living in fear, political crisis and slight chaos. How will today go by? Can we guarantee that today will be a peaceful day or will chaos break out? Lets continue to uphold our nation in prayer today, for peace and God's blessing and His constant hand of protection. =)

Agape..

long after

2008-09-15T22:45:00.004+08:00

Hey Peeps! Sorry for the long absence.. been running up and down.. haha.. for those who din know.. i was back in KL.. =) this update will be short though.. i have to search for tons of videos for the Lantern Festival Celeb we're gonna have in this coll. =/

Yes.. after an incident filled weekend.. Which included the missing of the bus home to KL.. Actually rather the bus missed us.. we were there half an hr before time and the bus had to just shoot by us without stopping.. Kinda left us in a shock.. Called the centre and they slotted us in a bus 2 hours later.. So we were doing aimless stuff around the bus stop.. It was super panas man! a bus stop in the middle of nowhere.. yeah.. imagine those American rocky parts where they have a gas station and nothing else, and replace that with a bus stop.. yeah.. started to do stupid stuff.. the whole lot of us (4 to be exact)

yes. guess what they were doing? went to a nearby phone booth. started to call our phones with it and found out the public phone's number was actually a 03 number. o.O in pahang.. lol.. tried to call back the phone's number but din seem to ring haha.. don know why.. the other people at the bus stop were gazing at us with the "U have never seen a public phone in your whole life?" stare. man.. boredom leads to the impossible =O

finally bus came at 4pm. a long 3 hr wait.. =( got back to KL.. only to plunge into a loooong jam... took 1 hour and 15 mins to get home.. around 830pm. Had dinner and flopped and slept around 930. I was dead tired k..

Next day... went for youth, found out that Lee En and Michael were at the keyboards, playing for worship.. haha.. seriously proud and happy for the both of u.. continue serving and trust me, u guys will grow in skill, spiritually and in the favour of the Lord.. At youth, I had great fun playing the game of "monster hunting" and yeah.. great message by Mabel, inspired by God, it really challenged me to opress the monsters inside me.. Its either God who reigns, or the monsters. A choice which seems easy but sometimes tough as we are challenged a lot of times. But if my God is for me who can be against me? =)

At night, went to One U with Hansel again. "pak tuo" they call it. had dinner..=) and found out the best way to spend time haha.. playing pool! 2 games alone cost us 45 mins. don laugh. we had the ball flying all over the place. Yes over the place. even all the way to the bowling area. We couldn't get the straight shots in but managed to do trick shots. O_O. thats how "pro" we are.. Wanna challenge? =P.. had a nice talk walking around the whole place. yeah. went back around 945pm.. till the next time la. =)

Sunday morning, went to church =) Pastor Peter preached and then rushed off to McDs to get something and then left for coll again at 130pm.. Rush rush rush.. but yeah.. made it back to college on time around 5pm, 2 hours before the limit, and had 2 reports to rush and a few tutorials haih.. Monday blues la.. But yeah.. thank God.. this Wed is a holiday.. and i am gonna be back for a week next friday for Raya..=D.. so won't be so stressed out la.. =) Take care peeps, till next time =)

Agape.

randomness

2008-09-09T23:13:00.002+08:00

i don't know what to post.. haha.. but just a sneak preview into what i will blog next time.. FOOD! yeah.. i went to the bazaar today and waaahhhhh.. lots of food.. and they do that everyday from 4pm-7pm... its like a pasar malam except that it is in the afternoon and it is like so far.. from my hostel.. 15 min walk there alone.. lazy haha.. =D

coming back this weekend to get some stuff haha.. and to rest myself.. very hectic life especially in the closing stages of Sem 1.. i can't believe it.. it was just like yesterday when i registered.. and now 5 more weeks to go and thus ends Sem 1.. lecturers are rushing to finish of the syllabus cause the things we learn for Sem 1 are for Sem 1 alone.. and Sem 2 we start anew.. burn those Sem 1 books.. muahaha.. rushing lecturers = more work, less sleep.. haihx.

back to work.. and if can, i try to sleep in half an hours time.. =/ see u guys this weekend! =)

Agape..

puasa month (1st week)

2008-09-06T21:26:00.003+08:00

guess u all might be thinking that i will be complaining that i am starving la.. dying of hunger la. haha.. in fact.. i am getting so much fatter now.. lols... nono.. i am not a ball.. yet.. but yea.. other than trying my best not to eat or drink even from my bottle when they are around, puasa month is a month to really enjoy food u can't get lo.. really.. its a very different experience from that of high school.. =D

i will post up pics of food sooner or later.. but yeah.. there is a lot of variety.. ranging from ikan bakar, murtabak, lemang etc etc.. the college also set up a bazaar run by lecturers and outsiders and i haven't went there to try anything yet.. but i will go soon.. haha.. and the food is well-priced.. though a bit more expensive than normal.. but sadly.. one can only buy these from 4pm onwards.. haha.. though there are still stores opened from lunch onwards.. but the major cafes are closed.. =(.. but it is good to eat something different than rather the same stuff i've been eating for the past like 3 months + haha..

well.. today i had replacement class.... haih.. the aftermath of having so many extra holidays.. but yeah... still ok larh.. but replacement class on saturdays mean i can't go to church on Sundays.. cause to go to church i must be in Kuantan for the night.. by the time class finishes.. which is around 5pm.. its too late to go out.. but glad that i found time still to do my quiet time amongst the bustle and work.. =)

Been reading the book of Acts.. started chapter 1 on wednesday.. i felt moved to read about Paul and his life through the various epistles he wrote... i found it quite interesting during AIM.. so decided to read more.. haha.. hope i learn something from it..

The past few days have been like rain rain rain rain.. so its been cold and wet.. but other than that i have no complaints la.. haha.. life still goes on.. if u call this life.. =P.. but slowly... i thank God for placing me here.. time really goes by just like that.. and *poof* its Saturday.. and minus the one week of Raya hols.. i have 5 weeks left till the end of my first sem.. and thats half of my journey in Kuantan.. 2nd sem is even shorter.. only a mere 5 months.. and its over.. i still remember the time when i was telling my friends and rueing the fact that i was gonna leave..

I learnt from one the quotes that i saw hanging when i was walking on one of the aisles and found it quite mind provoking..

"to plant something that last for days, plant flowers.
to plant something that last for weeks, plant trees.
to keep something that last for eternity, plant ideas."

btw.. eternity here means a long period of time k.. not like infinite period of time.. =) ok larh.. with that i end my post..

Agape..

post..post..post..

2008-09-04T01:31:00.002+08:00

well.. lazy to post anything larh.. especially at this time.. i wanna go catch some sleep adi.. its something i've really been lacking since yesterday.. sat down for a while and thought of the people back home in KL.. and yeah.. keeping all of u in prayer.. goodnight all =D

agape..

september

2008-09-02T22:35:00.002+08:00

forgot.. its september..! yay.

1000km..

2008-09-02T20:19:00.003+08:00

i can't believe it man.. this weekend alone i travelled more than 1000km on the highway..

KL ---- Penang = 360km x 2(to and fro)
KL ---- Kuantan = 250km x2 (to and fro)

total 1220km on the highway lol.. super tiring..

ok.. i was back this weekend.. yeah..but i went to Penang... that explains my absence from church and youth.. I went on Saturday early morning till Monday around lunch time.. had to go visit my sister and bro in law.. working there.. but the food there was glorious.. as usual la.. Penang la.. had quite a nice time there.. caught this shot.. of the sunset.. when i was eating dinner.. again.. taken with my faithful camera phone K550i.. so don't blame the quality of the shot as duh it can't be compared with a chun camera right..

once again.. amazed by how many colours can fill the sky.. the One who paints the sky with those colours watches over us..

On Monday night, went to Cineleisure with Hansel.. who apparently was like "today ah" when i asked him whether he wanted to go for dinner with me.. lol.. perhaps din expect to see me in KL on a Monday night.. haha.. but yeah.. we met up.. went to watch Wall - E.. quite a nice movie haha.. He just had to miss the ending man.. lol.. but nvm la.. its no big deal.. =).. then we had dinner at Madam Lim's in Tesco.. something local la.. always fast food.. hehe.. then went for a spot of bowling.. He literally owned me in the first game.. 7x - 13x ... but got him back in the second.. =) 12x - 8x muahaha.. anyways.. it was just for the fun =D but yeah.it was so much of fun and kinda reminded me of the AIM times.. when we used to do all those stuff.. but haih.. we grow up.. time passes.. and we are all busy busy..

Came back today.. tons of work ahead of me.. work hard for a month then will get to enjoy a week of relaxation again haha.. raya week.. this month is puasa month as well.. haih.. many cafes not gonna open.. its a bit hard also eating in front of my friends (even drinking water).. not literally in front la.. but yeah.. you get what i mean.. especially when they are the majority here..will be praying that God will help me pull through haha.. though it will be a new experience.. =)

till the next time la.. =)

Agape..

no greater love than this..

2008-08-28T01:04:00.003+08:00

You see the depths of my heart and You loved me the same.. No greater words can be used to express the love that took our place and loved us just as we are.. i will just let the song speak for itself..

agape..

finally..

2008-08-26T23:30:00.021+08:00

ok long post ahead of what actually happened to me during my hols.. haha

well i will only include a few things.. the main highlights.. the rest of my hols were spent either on the computer, sleeping, doing assignments and the other stuff u will do on a normal day.. haha

without further ado lets get to it.. hehe..

my first week was practically boring haha.. went for bowling twice for 2 hours each session haha.. and that was practically it.. they had this sort of RM 30 per lane... play 2 hours non stop thingy.. so i had a friend, and we gave RM 15 each for 2 hours of non stop bowling.. and phew.. save the state of our hands after that.. =P didn't have the privilege to use the car that much for that week.. so my 1st week just flew by.. haha

the 2nd week =) a more interesting week.. annual camp!!! from the 21-23 august.. i basically only went for 2 days la. and being a commander for camp.. haha.. a new experience la.. u get to enjoy some privileges but u have to work a lot as well..

21st august

woke up at 5am haha.. and had a mini MUSE concert in the car.. oh how i missed those days.. all the falsetto .. too sleepy to figure at that time.. but with Sam driving at 120km/h.. and the music blasting.. if that doesn't wake u up i don't know what will lol.. arrived at church and left for Sungai Congkak..=) long since i ever saw a river and the lush greenery around it.. haha..quite a significant place for me.. cause it was the exact place where i had my 1st campout =)

sungai congkak

God's awesome creation

makes me stop and marvel..

arrived bout lunch time.. haha.. and yea... started to help those kids set up their tents and all.. and guess what? it just had to POUR.. and we had to wait for the rain to stop.. one thing i really don't like to do..

well.. here are some pics.. =D

opening ceremony

sam conducting it cause he was senior guide.. =)

they bringing their whole house or what? =P

pitching tents..

raining and pouring..

these kids were still cheery despite the rain and being cooped up in the tent.. haha..

at night.. me and Hansel worked to build a council fire for the ceremony at night.. and yeah.. we managed to build something.. Comm. Eddy brought lots of wood.. so yeah.. after the rain stopped we had some games.. then after that set to work to build the council fire which resulted in this..

then.. we waited till night and ceremony started of with Hansel organizing the whole thing.. we started with a little sketch then lighted the fire.. followed by myself worship leading and then a challenge by Ps David.. there were little skits here and there..

the brightly lit flame
the girls doing a sketch..

after all that stuff.. we (the jr commanders) decided to play a little game.. we blindfolded all the rangers and told them a Japanese colonization story.. where many people were killed and all.. and then took them for a walk in the forest in the dark... (actually very near camp) and made noises and all.. we could tell some of them were freaked out but the older ones weren't haha.. so yeah.. but at least it was something rite.. haha.. then came the highlight of the night.. BBQ!!

the commanders doing BBQ

after that.. we shoooed them all to bed.. lights out and had our own fun.. Hansel, Sam , Comm Horr Wai and myself decided to take a midnight dip in the river.. (always a tradition to do so.. =P)... as we were walking towards the river, we didn't realise that we had stepped on a colony of ants.. and i got the worse dose of ant poison.. i felt like a super duper painful sensation on my left foot and jumped my way out of that path.. lol.. hilarious la.. then Commander Horr Wai in front of me started to shout as one ant had bitten him and Hansel behind got one or two bites i guess..then we all started running out of the path and shouting lol..(if one didn't know what hit us it was quite hilarious actually) but mine was like 7-8 bites after i checked.. u know how the pain of a bee sting? its something like tat.. and it was multiple stings... lol.. at first i din know what hit us.. cause we were walking with only one torch.. then we went back to examine and found this long line of red ants.. and gosh.. they were tiny.. man.. the pain they could deal was like whoooo! u know what i mean la.. in the end we got our bath.. sat by the fire and then slept in the van =)

22 August
woke up at 7am.. had all the usual parades and i was in in charge of the Adventure Rangers(AR) with Comm Horr Wai and the the rest.. so.. practically we were preparing for a 9km hike to a new campsite.. the ARs had to do their backpacking thingy so yeah.. b4 we left, i spotted the DRs (discovery rangers) doing their merits..

like this shot of them doing firecraft.. caught the sunlight and smoke..

Tim teaching the kids lashing..

then bout 1030am we started the hike..

b4 the start

during the walk

random shot =P

trust me.. the road was not an easy one.. i mean... for them carrying the backpacks and all.. i will applaud Joshua Mohan.. he insisted to hike all the way with a backpack.. only at the last part of journey he gave up the bag and we put it in the van.. His spirit taught me a few things.. =) Never give up! after they pitched their tents at the new campsite, they were rewarded with a bath in the river

then after that it started to pour.. again.. and yes.. they were supposed to cook over a fire.. their own meal.. lol.. but their spirit never dampened and i would give all credit to them.. i would have just sat in my tent and go without the meal.. seriously.. but they were awesome.. they managed to get a fire going.. and actually cook in the rain..

can u spot them? =)

yeah.. Comm Horr Wai cooked us a delicious dinner over the stove and not long after that Comm. Eddy came and i got a ride back to base camp.. it was really a miserable night for the rangers lorh.. raining and all.. left the place at around 1100 pm.. back all the way to Sam's house.. spent the night there.. Michael came over too... haha..

23rd August

Amazing Race! yeah.. and guess what it rained again.. =(.. lol.. everytime we have an outdoor event it seems to be pouring hehe.. but anyways.. good job by the organizers.. except for a few messed up clues here and there.. but yeah overall i had tons of fun.. and yeah HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!! went out to eat dinner at this buffet steamboat shop in Menjalara.. yeah.. =)

at night, we celebrated my cousins b'day as well.. yeah, his b'day falls on the same day as my mums..haha.. turning 17 this year.. =) and guess what we had DURIAN CAKE from Secret Recipe.. haha.. i was so full i could only have one slice..

DURIAN CAKE

my cousins.. they rock.. its his b'day.. the one in the middle =D

and thus.. ends my marvelous holiday.. i could never get enough of these hols.. but thank God that i had a wonderful rested break.. and yeah.. looking forward to my next hols.. =D

Agape..

partial update.. =P

2008-08-25T22:50:00.002+08:00

well.. this update won't contain photos as my laptop is running out of battery..no time to transfer and upload..

firstly.. i am coming back again this weekend cause of the monday and tuesday holiday haha.. the college is trying to "evacuate" everyone out.. thats y i have no choice but to leave.. but unfortunately i won't be able to meet up with u guys.. i am going up to Penang from Saturday till Monday and going back on Tuesday till october.. so practically no chance of seeing any of u all.. =(

got my mid-sem results.. seriously thank God.. i don't think i deserved what i got though.. haha.. but all glory goes to Him.. =)

still in holiday mode.. got the " i wish i was enjoying myself and resting and have nothing to care about" mood.. yeah like on u get after a major exam or some kind of break after a period of stress and hard work.. =) Kinda getting myself to do the work i wish i would not need to do.. but alas.. what to do?

Had great fun with u guys during my mid-sem break.. time to focus back.. and get back on track.. (i hope).. haha.. kinda forgot all the stuff i had learnt b4 hols.. =X.. and thats kinda uh bad.. =O

guess thats bout it.. next post.. i promise i PROMISE.. pictures.. ah..

agape..

updates after hols.

2008-08-23T22:52:00.002+08:00

as the title says.. i will only be updating after the hols that is when i get back to coll on monday... will be back with tons of pictures from the stuff that happened to me during the hols.. hehe.. so wait and be patient la haha.. =)

holidays!

2008-08-11T10:50:00.002+08:00

haha.. one part i really enjoy bout being back here.. haha.. spending time with family and friends.. knowing that u don't have to worry bout Pahang for quite a while.. haha.. awesome..

Went back to youth on Saturday.. had an awesome time of worship... there was this song titled "indescribable" by Chris Tomlin.. quite old adi the song.. but i heard it for my first time and it touch me.. really.. i was awestruck beyond words.. I wish i was here during "The Passion".. i really so wanted to go.. haha.. had various workshops.. i went for the creative communication workshop and was glad i did.. though u all may say like i have been serving so long in the music ministry and should try something else.. haha.. I have learnt something that made me view creative arts from another perspective...and thats for me to keep.. =)

At night... had a surprise party for Beng Ian's farewell, Wei Chin and Eric's birthday.. haha.. i liked how the organisers managed to invite the 3 of them without them knowing that the party IS for them.. haha.. well... no surprise.. they got a baptism of water in the pool.. haha.. with two other people.. that were pushed in after they pushed them.. haha.. hilarious la really.. Beng Ian ran away.. thats the most potong steam part larh.. he was the one that I really wanted to see get dumped properly lol...

yeah.. thats practically my weekend back here... just an introduction of the 2 weeks that are yet to come haha.. I hope.. thats all la..

Agape..

Resonance

2008-08-05T22:33:00.001+08:00

sounds scientific right haha.. for those who don know whats resonance.. its actually a natural phenomena when an object will oscillate at maximum amplitude because it is vibrating at its natural frequency. Every object has its own natural frequency.. an example of such a case is the Tacoma bridge disaster in the year 1940

why has this happened? because the wind at that moment was blowing at a frequency equal to the natural frequency of the bridge.. thus the bridge oscillates at max amplitude.. and take note that this bridge is a solid bridge.. like that of the Golden Gate in San Francisco.. Yet it moves like jelly.. haha.. but i am not here to talk about resonance in physics..

In our human nature, there is one part which is destined for eternity and ties us with God.. which is actually the soul.. and that part is the most natural.. our natural frequency.. unfortunately.. today a lot of people has caused their soul to vibrate with other frequencies of the world.. anything other than their natural frequency.... and thus their when their soul is not vibrating in natural frequency it won't move or move very slightly.. likewise, their soul slowly dies off.. what i mean by "die" here is in the Christian way, drowning themselves in the ways of the world.. God does not come in the picture and they end up in hell for eternity..

The frequency that is equal to our natural frequency is GOD. our soul must be in tune with God.. agreed? Imagine.. even the bridge disaster can occur when resonance is achieved.. if we are in resonance with God.. what can happen.. being in resonance with the Creator of the universe.. the One who gave His one and only Son on the cross for us.. we are equipped with so much power.. we are able to achieve things beyond what we can achieve.. aren't u excited to know about that?

The prob is.. are we in resonance with God? Have we swayed away.. we can only be in resonance with Him when our relationship is right with Him.. practically things like doing devotion.. praying and stuff like that keeps our relationship with Him.. but thats not enough.. Our life shows whether we are good in our relationship with God.. if we do our devotion, pray go to church and still go around swearing, drinking, doing drugs.. see the point?

I truly hope with all my heart that this message will get across to each and every heart that reads this.. this was not excerpted or taken from anywhere.. its a desperate message from God that He has put in my heart to ALL readers.. i repeat ALL readers.. not just Christians.. that we must get ourselves right with Him.. to be in resonance with Him.. so that we are ready when He comes back again.. and also to be used by Him to reach as many people before His return.. are u ready people?? if u are.. dedicate your life to Him right now.. let Him equip u and use u.. if u were once far from God and u are reading this message.. this is your turning point... He is standing there with open arms ready to renew your relationship with Him.. to erase your past however bad it may be..

Agape....